How shall I put it?

Lately, so many things happened in my life. How shall I put it? Not all can be written here....

One thing for sure, I'm excited about meeting the girls (ex-SGGS) @ Parkroyal on 21st November. It's been 20years! I already get permission from DH, lyn lembek (heheh) gonna fetch me, then we'll pick bad & aryati at Nilai, and then we'll head to Parkroyal! Let's paint the town red!

As for DLC (Not OLC, SSM won't accept the name)...

The location is confirm. Next, proceed with creating co. acct, draft the agreement letter, schedules, renovation, getting the furnitures, duh!!! so many thing...

I'm excited but at the same time I have "frog" in the stomach. can't sleep well, lost appetites, and I feel 24hrs a day just ain't enough....I should be counting my blessing.....

OLC is coming up

Semlm gi tgh office lot. It's huge 31' by 70'. Nego punya nego, dpt le rm1k a month. Contract 3+2.
A very good deal indeed, even the 20 by 70, the landlord offered 800 per mth...

byk mende lagi nak kene buat ni...rase out of hand je.....

When You're Gone

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

[Chorus]
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

Alhamdulillah

Last night, we held our first meeting. Looks like our dream (me & Fern) will comes true. Alhamdulillah, the guys are content with our exec plan & costing. We'll go ahead start building things step by step....

Thank God for this one in a lifetime opportunity....

November Rain

Fistly, happy birthday to my dear friends whom their bithdays fall on november - Ben, Zura, Ina and Helen.

When I look into your eyes
I can see a love restrained
But darlin' when I hold you
Don't you know I feel the same

'Cause nothin' lasts forever
And we both know hearts can change
And it's hard to hold a candle
In the cold November rain

We've been through this auch a long long time
Just tryin' to kill the pain

But lovers always come and lovers always go
An no one's really sure who's lettin' go today
Walking away

If we could take the time
to lay it on the line
I could rest my head
Just knowin' that you were mine
All mine
So if you want to love me
then darlin' don't refrain
Or I'll just end up walkin'
In the cold November rain

Do you need some time...on your own
Do you need some time...all alone
Everybody needs some time...
on their own
Don't you know you need some time...all alone

I know it's hard to keep an open heart
When even friends seem out to harm you
But if you could heal a broken heart
Wouldn't time be out to charm you

Sometimes I need some time...on my
own
Sometimes I need some time...all alone
Everybody needs some time...
on their own
Don't you know you need some time...all alone

And when your fears subside
And shadows still remain
I know that you can love me
When there's no one left to blame
So never mind the darkness
We still can find a way
'Cause nothin' lasts forever
Even cold November rain

Don't ya think that you need somebody
Don't ya think that you need someone
Everybody needs somebody
You're not the only one
You're not the only one

May the month of rain bring happiness in our life. Ameen.

1-November 2009

Iman's birthday. I purposely chosen 1-11-07 after 2-11-07 fell on Friday, that was my first choice.

Well, today we head to SR, to have Dina's fav Dory, me & hubby's fav lamb stew, Iman's fav new york cheese cake & Najla? My special girl eats bits of this & that...

Headache ler pulak ni, maybe coz today day 1, rase serabut je...rasa macam2, rindu, sedih, happy...semua ada...

A quote to ponder over.

Don't let someone be a priority in ur life, when u are just an option in his life.

Kenangan

Bila terbaca tajuk di forum tentang mencari rezeki semasa kecil...teringat apa yg me buat dulu..Walaupun kami dr keluarga yg susah, apa2 hasil jualan, mak bagi kat me...

me suh mak buat sagun, then, me bungkus dlm corong kertas, tapi mmg dah tak ingat berapa sen jual...hasilnya? me simpan.

ayah rajin usahakan tanah kat belakang flat for fun, tanam jagung, kacang panjang, kacang botol, bendi...& me loves helping him. Siram pokok2..paling best dapat petik hasil2 tanaman.. Then, ayah akan ikat, suh me jual kat flat, tak boleh pergi jauh...flat kitorg sahaja...Usually, mmg habis le..& hasilnya? dapat kat me jugak...

Me think, this is one of the reasons me close to ayah..selalu ikut ayah buat keje2 gini. Pernah tolong ayah cat rumah, sbb teringin sgt, tapis pasir utk ayah buat rumah org, main dgn pegetam kayu, kirenye alat pertukangan ni, mostly me pernah pegang...

Bile ayah dah pencen, mak & ayah buat jual goreng pisang & kuih muih. Balik cuti dar U, me sure akan tolong mak kat gerai. Takde istilah malu cam setengah org yg me kenal. lepas tu, mak & ayah besarkan perniagaan, buka kopitiam, sambutan amat menggalakkan. Ade org sewa gerai jual tomyam, nasi dalca, burger, capati..

Mmg happening, and mase ni me dah start kerja.. ade mase luang, me sure helps out, biasanya basuh2 cawan (even tho ade ankle yg buat kerja ni), amik order ..or just temankan mak.

Masa ayah tengah sakit kuat due to advance stomach cancer, we rent out the place. Ayah pesan kat mak, kalo die tak de, tak yah berniaga. Sejak ayah meninggal, mmg mak tak continue berniaga, sewakan kat org. Baru2 ni, diorg tak nak continue coz the business is not good. Mak cakap takpe. Biar je kedai gitu. Mak (&ayah) very particular pasal kebersihan gerai. So, nak dapatkan org yg benar2 jaga kebersihan mmg susah sgt....

Hmm...while rambling here, my heart feels like bursting out. I miss you very much, ayah! I love you! I don't have the chance to tell you this when we talked for the last time over the phone. I reliazed that your voiced changed..you're crying! Oh God! Help me..I miss my dad dearly..Tempatkan lah die dikalangan org2 yg beriman. Al-Fatihah. Amin.

HE knows better.....

SOMETIMES aLLAH BREAKS OUR SPIRIT TO SAVE OUR SOUL
SOMETIMES ALLAH BREAKS OUR HEART TO MAKE US WHOLE
SOMETIMES ALLAH ALLOWS PAIN SO WE CAN BE STRONGER
SOMETIMES ALLAH SEND US FAILURE SO WE CAN BE HUMBLE
SOMETIMES ALLAH ALLOW ILLNESS SO WE CAN TAKE CARE OF OUR SELVES
SOMETIMES ALLAH TAKES EVERYTHING AWAY FROM US
SO WE CAN LEARN THE VALUE OF EVERYTHING HE GAVE US
MAKE PLANS BUT UNDERSTAND THAT WE LIVE BY ALLAH'S GRACE

Rindu

Bila rindu menjengah & bertamu, sesaknye terasa nafas........

The Guest Book

It makes me laugh real hard on some of the comments posted by my cyber friends on the old guest book. Most of the time, I can't recall who they are....Many more, especially at the “private entry”, but sadly I forgotten the password.

Name: zulkovf

Location: hankook

Comments: a'kum

weit gempak siut aku org pertama sign lam ni caya ler sama aku ahax hahahahahahahahhaahah

weit angel ha dapat gak aku menengok kan diri kat muke ko hahhahahaha

weit ko nye hp sangat gempak kalau nnak banding kan hp lembi aku tu ghaha

tapi aku bangga ngan kerja aku sebab aku buat pun sendiri2 jek tarak org tolong

walau bagaimana maju ler bangsa untuk negara wa cakap luuuu

wa cici ai wei

w'salam

Name: TanGGo

Location: Sinar Mentari oh Korea.

Comments: Yahoooooo..aku the 2nd person sign guest book ko nie....bangga siut...terasa kembang lubang idung aku nie...hahahah

opppsss lupa lak nak bagi salam...Asalaamualaikumm...kalau mak aku tahu aku sign nie ..buat kenduri tetiap jumaat weii..hahaha..macam baca yasin wa cakap lu..hahaha..

Aku dah jumpa ko ler..masa tu aku tak minat..tak de perasaan..tapi sejak aku tengok ko jatuh cinta siut..available lagi ke rko nie..hahahahha

Ok lah kang carut leleby lak dlm ko nie nie...teruskan usha ko tu....ok...nice knowing u..bye....

Name: MOHD NIZAM A.K.A LoRD GrUnGeRZ

Location: malaysia la!!!...mana lagi??!!

Comments: ntah la.....aku pun tak tau nak komen apemenda...sebab aku dah comment dah dalam e-mail tuh. so kat sini...tak yah la yek sayang??!!!!...ala....nanti u copy paste dari mail aku tu dalam view guestbook tu yek??!!....takkan tu pooon u tak tau!!!!!

tu jer...jangan marah....sebab aku pun......malas nak menaip nih!!!!

Name: Ariffin bin Ahmad

Location: Serdang.

Comments: Amende le....

homepage ntah hapahapa...

tapi, tahniahla....

sebab background di cun gak....

tu jeh....jangan merajuk lagi yek.......JoeEl.....

Name: beta

Location: dari planet zargus..hahahha

Comments: a'kum..

hai angel..akhirnya..berjaya gak aku bukak ko nyer hp nih..hahahaha.. dan menyain kat dalam nih....

aku sungguh berbahagia..hahahaha

Name: MyLady~Royalblood of cyberworld

Location: Malaysia

Comments: A'kum ANGEL...

Nih aku baru nak sign guestbook ko...jiwang karats hp ko...anyway...caya ler...dari tak reti buat hp cam kuali dan sudip tuh...kira ok ler

...yg paling best kat hp ko tuh part ada nama aku tuh...dan

yang paling korok part ko taruk nama KURIN tuh ngan gambo dia

.. buat pe ko taruk gambo budak tuh...bukannye berseri pun...

buat dia di timpa perasaan jer...

Anyway ANGEL...best of luck in everything...thanks for everything and everytime

we shared together...dan sesungguhnye..."hanya Angel (bidadari) sebagai ganti" ahaks...

beta jangan jeles...be here always...

Name: hetfield@het@donut@belukang

Location: taiwan

Comments: saje melancong aha...cun jugak??? hp laaaaaa....cakap org pun ape lak salahnya kan

emm since ade sorang tu insist suh mention nama dia so

aku sebut la nama dia kurin kurin kurin kurin..ha cukup ke

ahak...chow weh

Name: apiss

Location: Japan

Comments: saya sukakan sesatu yg ringkas selesa dan tidak keterlaluan

heheh. apo laie nak tulis?NGEL. aku dah sain. buleh makan free dak?

Name: unie

Comments: kurang kelakar

Name: Den budak Nogoghi....

Referred By: From AngelFire

Location: Pilah... humang banggo'eh den...!!

Comments: Den budak Pilah... den banggo boto laaa dongan tanah tumpah darah den nie... Tawun niee... NS misti jadi champion Liga punyo laaa... Pada Rina... U're the best... Penang pun boleh tahan gak... NS+Penang=gegarrrrr!!!!!

Name: hir0mi@r0mi@0mi

E-Mail: c08172@sr2.takuma-ct.ac.jp;omi76@yahoo.com

Location: mesia

Comments: assalamualaikum wbt

hehe...hang .....angel..tengkiu bagi aku lawat hp hang ni..pade kesempatan ni aku nak sain aa gesbuk ni

aku rase dah penah tengok...dan dah sain

tapi takpe ..aku sign manyak kali

bukan abih pon dakwat aku

ahaxs...

tengkiu aaa...wassalam

Name: |alakazam|

Location: kypm kl

Comments: nie aku jumpe site nie dari ompej abang araya...mule2 aku tengok tak best tapie tetiba jadi best pulak...so aku sain le guestbook nie...ape2 hal.....kak angel.....ko nie cun dan best la..sekian wassalam.

|alakazam|

Name: wan

Location: US

Comments: -->

wan: asal jangan dia ngaku cung

Saber: hehehe

ANGEL: kehkehkeh

ANGEL tak cun..ngaku...

Saber: oooo....kau sanggup buat pe je..asalkan dia tak ngaku cun yekk

wan: hah ok

ANGEL: kehkehkeh

Saber: hehe

ANGEL: ni url nyer

wan: org tak cung je leh kawan ngan aku

Saber: url tuh mende yekk hehehe

ok babai dah sign

Good Bye -26-Oct-2009

Don't be afraid to love totally & completely....
I came not, to steal away your heart....but you steal mine...he he
My only love sprung from my only hate...from romeo & juliet...
The original look was better I guess, this is after some modification..funny, it looks worse!
the new page, dedicated for personal photos...it's always under construction, never finished, till it die....

My 1st website was developed 12 years ago. The coding done manually using the beloved notepad. But now, it's gone. Geocities has decided to stop the free website service. I captured a few pages, just to flash back the memories...

baja/7991 in memory....

u have it too?

Subhanallah..

لَوْ تَعْلَمُونَ مَا أَعْلَمُ لَضَحِكْتُمْ قَلِيلاً وَلَبَكَيْتُمْ كَثِيرًا

"IF YOU ONLY KNEW WHAT I KNOW, YOU WOULD LAUGH LESS AND CRY MORE."

Ini antara hadis Nabi yg mucul di kaki baby Ali di Yakubov, Moscos setiap mlm Isnin dan Jumaat. Sesungguhnya Allah sedang memberi peringatan kepada kita yang lalai...

Keep on pushing on....

Another catchy song from Miley C, not only catchy but the lyric gives you the positive thinking about life, pursuing your dream no matter what comes in between. Keep the faith close to your heart!

The Climb

I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa

Reality bites

At one point, you are tested when you're at the comfortable zone, when you least expect it to happen. Later, when the damage is done, picking up the bits and pieces is the hardest part. Anyway, you have to remember, life has to go on; get the toughest glue to seal the bits and pieces together and always protect yourself from yourself (you know what I mean). You never knew what's gonna happen....

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and some things are better left unsaid....

Soulmate Fantasy

You believe that there is only one soulmate out there to complete you... and that when you meet them, you’ll know right away. Well, this may seem like a harmless fairytale fantasy but can also be the path to self-destruction. There are many people that can be considered your ‘soulmate’, it just depends on how you look at it. If you keep waiting for that one true love to show up, you will either keep ending up in disappointing relationships because you fall too hard, too fast, or become bitter when you don’t find them.

excerpt from Fairytale Syndrome

bitter when you don't find them? well, even worse when u found them & lost them...no?

Interesting!

I get this from a forum, very interesting indeed;

...mimosa is..

...touch me not...

...marital affair is...

...forget me not...

Last so-called open house

Happy birthday my dearest MIL, Mary....
Sabtu, b4 balik kg...Dh's friend ajak makan kat umah die, so..berangkat le kitorg, with Yana (dearest SIL)... Then, that night, me sakit perut ya amat, by 8pm me terbaring, tido je..kids? let others uruskan, the next morning baru ok. Then, Dh pulak sakit, die lagi teruk diarrhea & demam..pergh...sampai Melaka pun dah Maghrib

Tak dpt gi open house umah Ina (Sorry!)...& umah Sally (Double Sorry!)..me dah confirm with u, but Allah tentukan me tak dapat gi agi, nanti u deliver baby, me gi umah u eh? I'm really sorry!

Kat umah DH's friend, sempat merapu2 sebelum tuan umah hidangkan makanan. Me, Yana & Dh..Hampesss!!! Kirenye habis romantik aa tu..hahahaha..xiot je Yana!

480e

My dearest cousin (Pai), has comes up with this project in remembrance of our Tok's home which already demolished due to so-called "development". He wants us to flash back our memories in that special house...

Frankly, I think Ihave more memories compared to other siblings as I spent more time with Tok & Pai. Every weekends, I'd asked my dad to send me to Tok's house, & Pai is my best buddy...we play, eat & sleep together. I don't mind telling the sweet memories, I have lots of them..

But, there are some bad ones too, which I prefer to bury..I wish I could. Oh God! How i wish...It becomes a nightmare in my teenage years....but no longer since I talked to someone I can trust. I'm more than OK now....

One thing for sure, I would never forgive them for the rest of their fucking life!

Love is in the air?

Love:
If you are with someone; today will be a harmonious day with them. If you've been waiting to say something to that special someone, today is the day. Love is in the air!
Career:
Your hard work is paying off, someone at work has noticed your effort and you will be rewarded today.
Health:
You've been doing really well at keeping up your health!
Wealth:
A promotion or large sum of money may be coming into your possesion soon! You may be able to take that vacation you've been wanting!

I don't really into this horoscope thingy, got this from my friend's Fb...what the heck, it's just for fun! I still remember years a go when I decided to get engaged with DH, Richard mentioned that me being a Tiger will have to problem matching or tame the stubbornness of an Ox.....well, what does he know? he he

Big Girls Don't Cry lyrics

Big Girls Don't Cry lyrics

The smell of your skin lingers on me now
You're probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection, baby
To be with myself and center
Clarity, peace, serenity

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do

And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry, don't cry, don't cry

The path that I'm walkin', I must go alone
I must take the baby steps 'til I'm full grown, full grown
Fairy tales don't always have a happy ending, do they?
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do

And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry

Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and Uno cards
I'll be your best friend and you'll be mine
Valentine

Yes, you can hold my hand if you want to
'Cause I want to hold yours too
We'll be playmates and lovers
And share our secret worlds

But it's time for me to go home
It's getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself, and center
Clarity, peace, serenity

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do

And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry, don't cry, don't cry

Dear God

Dear God, Please give me strength.....

Rejuvenate

If you put you mind into it, you sure can do it!

Focus

1. website suzy1

2. website suzy2

3. project with fern - ni yg memeningkan kapla, everytime buka spreasheets, rase pening....kalo gini, bile le nak siap my baby nih. Kekadang rase down gaks, coz x tau nak tanye kat sape dlm hal2 gini. Ade kengkawan pun, x ramai yg dpt membantu.

At least ari tu, mat gabra ada call back regarding this, idak mau me kebuntuan lagiks....

vocab hari ni, friend with benefit - all the while i thought it means a helpful friend hehehhe

meaning : it's when you don't want a serious relationship but you want him / her as your toy to fuck around with.It also can be when she / him are already in a realtionship but you like that person so he/she agrees to be your friend with benefit.

it ain't over 'til it's over

It's Over !!!

Sleepless nite

It's hard when you have difficulty closing your eyes at night, where you need the most crucial rest. To make it worse, you have bits and pieces of weird dreams. You feel like you're in a subconscious world and you feel very restless, wakes up several time and looking at the clock, wishing it's already morning...

Have you ever feel terrible for making someone's life miserable indirectly, albeit he/she says that it had nothing to do with you? Well, that's what i'm feeling now.....

the chocolate run

me done reading the choc run, done the review for the online magazine. The Verdict? It was funny, witty, cheeky, u know the kind chic-lit book. I love the way she build up the characters...But to re-read again? Not yet, maybe next year. I prefer marshmallow for breakfast and my best friend's girl..more heart gripping.

I just can't wait to read twenties girl from my favorite chic-lit author, Sophie Kinsella. I just love her can u keep a secret & the undomestic goddess.

MC

sakitnye paler ni...rase nak tercabut je....lepas antar dina ke KAFA, nak tido sepuas2nye.....

everything else, can wait....

b4 & after raya

so many unexpected things happen, makes me think about, life...

YELLOW

Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And everything you do,
Yeah, they were all yellow.
I came along,
I wrote a song for you,
And all the things you do,
And it was called "Yellow".
So then I took my turn,
Oh what a thing to have done,
And it was all "Yellow."
Your skin,
Oh yeah your skin and bones,
Turn into something beautiful,
You know, you know I love you so,
You know I love you so.
I swam across,
I jumped across for you,
Oh what a thing to do.
Cos you were all "Yellow",
I drew a line,
I drew a line for you,
Oh what a thing to do,
And it was all "Yellow."
Your skin,
Oh yeah your skin and bones,
Turn into something beautiful,
And you know,
For you I'd bleed myself dry,
For you I'd bleed myself dry.
It's true,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine for,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine.
Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And all the things that you do.

house painting project

The stripy feature wall. It turns out to be better than we expected. ...Love it! It certainly gives cheerful mood.

The dining area..nampak kosong sket, tp kalo tgk dgn meja, jadi 'busy' la nanti...

Living are ni nampak kosong yet, still figuring out what to hang on the wall. Tak nak membeli, nak recycle what I have in the house...

The maroon curtain, matching pulak dgn candy floss pink ni....

Finally it's here!

After 4 agony days waiting for it to appear in my life, it came right after I visited the GP, seeking advice on how to proceed with my current condition. Thanks Allah, I'm just not ready yet, physically & mentally......

Weekend @ Home

Penat sungguh 2 hari ni...

Sabtu - Plan nak ke KL, tgk adik ipar baru deliver baby Sumayyah. Tapi cancel, cused hubby kepenatan ngecat umah. Me buat biskut sarang semut, utk suzy & Ct. Petang try buat chocolate cookies for us la pulak...dah cukup buat utk org..penat seh....

Ahad - Pagi2 meneruskan usaha buat choc cookies for mak & mil pulak. Kalo larat, petang ni nak buat sejenis lagi....tp tgk le..penat je rase, tlg hubby rearrange perabot kat umah ni. He is almost done with painting...berseri le sket rumah ni...idak dull ajer warna nyer....

Cuti yg penuh dgn aktiviti

Saturday - Pagi2, shopping groceries, tinggalkan kids kat nursery. Brought dina along, but I made her wear mask all the way. Cooked for iftar.

Sunday - Hubby & bro paint the living room with candy pink & lime green! I love it, it's such a wonderful color. Not everyone dare to use this color scheme. As for me, I bake the sarang semut cookies from my bro's friends...Err, next year I don't want to take cookies order anymore...damn tired!

Monday - Merdeka! We went out to get new tv cabinet & side shelf...murah je, bajet ciput...ehehehhe....

Just a glance, makes me think about life!

Semasa dlm kereta tadi, semasa jenguk ke kiri, nampak sebuah motor. Pemboncengnya muda (anak rasenye), Yg bawa motor tu bapaknye...Pakai hensem je mamat ni, dlm bakul motor ade fail..macam nak pergi interview je, muke nervous gile. Yg bapaknye, nampak cool je... rindu kat arwah ayah!

Kemudian, terdetik kat hati ni, Allah sentiasa permudahkan urusan ku bila nak dapatkan kerja, aku patut bersyukur. Rase sedih plak, x tau sebab pe. Yg pasti, akan ku buat kerja bersungguh... Ameen.

Stress

@ 3.30am terjaga dari tidur. rupenya, kepala otak ni masih tension ...huh...betullah kata ustaz fadilah kamsah, kene mamafkan orang baru bleh tido. Well, the problem is i don't have the intention to forgive that person just yet!

Some ppl are just selfish, put themselves at utmost priority! let the others sink!...

test for ai

Harga Produk DCL
Bil	No. Kod	Butir-Butir Kandungan	Kuantiti	Harga
				W.M	E.M	Brunei	S'pore
Minuman Berfungsi / Functional Drink
1	FD-1a	Oxi-Pi D'Ionik (air alkali beroksigen) - 350ml	24 botol	90.80	105.80	52.90	52.90
2	FD-1b	Oxi-Pi D'Ionik (air alkali beroksigen) - 350ml	2 botol	7.90	9.20	4.60	4.60
3	FD-2	Bidadari (minuman berfungsi) - 250ml	1 unit	53.00	58.50	29.50	29.50
4	FD-3a	Red Guara Café (pek aluminium) - 20gm	18 sachets	22.00	24.50	13.50	13.50
5	FD-3b	Red Guara Café (DCLWare) - 20gm	95 sachets	118.00	130.00	68.00	68.00
6	FD-4	Amazing (minuman bernutrisi) - 290gm	1 unit	45.00	49.50	25.50	25.50
7	FD-5	Susu Koles-Gen - 15gm	20 sachets	98.00	103.00	49.00	49.00
8	FD-6	Nig'Ella (minuman bernutrisi) - 10ml	1 unit	45.00	49.50	25.00	25.00
Makanan Berfungsi / Functional Food
1	FF-1	Nu Age (makanan berfungsi) - 3gm	15 sachets	78.00	85.00	45.00	45.00
Homeopati / Homeopathy
1	HP-1	D'bless (homeopathy)	90 tablets	76.00	83.00	42.00	42.00
2	HP-2	D'Gnius (homeopathy) - Kanak-kanak	80 tablets	39.50	41.50	21.00	21.00
3	HP-3	E'Gnius (homeopathy) - Dewasa	90 tablets	48.00	53.00	27.50	27.50
Herba Tradisional / Traditional Herb
1	TH-1a	Inte-Cleanse (herba) - 500mg - 2 pek	20 capsules	48.00	53.00	29.50	29.50
2	TH-1b	Clon-Clenz - 400mg	30 capsules	48.00	53.00	29.50	29.50
3	TH-2	Ry-Ilex (herba) - 500 mg - 4 pek	40 capsules	58.00	65.00	34.00	34.00
4	TH-3	Q-She (herba) - 400mg	42 capsules	68.00	75.00	38.50	38.50
Penjagaan Rumah / Home Care
1	HC-1	Serbuk Pencuci SA-9 - 1kg	1 unit	17.80	19.50	10.00	10.00
Penjagaan Diri / Personal Care
1	PC-1	Fantasia Shower Scrub - 300ml	1 unit	25.00	27.00	13.00	13.00
2	PC-4	Love Hygiene Wash-Strawberry - 70ml	1 unit	25.00	27.00	13.00	13.00
Penjagaan Kecantikan / Beauty Care
1	BC-1A	d'laila (Beauty Series) 3 in 1 - 45gm+5gm+5gm	1 unit	48.50	53.50	27.50	27.50
2	BC-1B	d'laila (Acne Series) 2 in 1 - 45gm+5gm	1 unit	48.50	53.50	27.50	27.50
3	BC-2A	d'laila (Beauty Facial Bar) - 45gm	1 unit	16.50	17.80	9.50	9.50
4	BC-2B	d'laila (Acne Facial Bar) - 45gm	1 unit	16.50	17.80	9.50	9.50
5	BC-3	d'laila (Beauty Night Cream) - 15gm	1 unit	58.50	63.00	33.00	33.00
6	BC-4	Fantasiola (Lipstik Magic Color) - 3.5gm	1 unit	29.00	31.00	17.50	17.50
7	BC-5	d'laila (Sun Block) - 15gm	1 unit	64.50	69.50	36.50	36.50
8	BC-6	d'laila (Acne Lotion) - 15gm	1 unit	58.50	63.00	33.00	33.00
9	BC-7	Fantasia Perfume Body Moisturizer - 100ml	1 unit	48.00	52.00	27.00	27.00
10	BC-8	Be-One Multi Gel - 110gm	1 unit	44.50	48.50	25.00	25.00
Rawatan Air / Water Treatment
1	WT-1	Sistem Perawatan Air OXI-PI D'Ionik Life Water	1 unit	2,120.00	2,190.00	1,150.00	1,150.00
2	WT-2	Filter 1 - Ceramic Filter/Penapis Seramik	1 unit	81.00	91.00	46.00	46.00
3	WT-3	Filter 2 - Activated Carbon/Penapis Karbon Diaktifkan	1 unit	81.00	91.00	45.00	45.00
4	WT-4	Filter 3 - Pre-Activated Carbon, High Grade Sand and Kinetic Degradattion Fluxion/Penapis Karbon Diaktifkan, Pasir Gred Tinggi dan (Kinetic Degradition Fluxion)	1 unit	149.00	161.00	85.00	85.00
5	WT-5	Filter 4 - Energized Converter/Konverter Bertenaga	1 unit	149.00	161.00	85.00	85.00
6	WT-6	Filter 5 - Ionized Converter/Konverter Berion	1 unit	149.00	161.00	85.00	85.00
7	WT-7	Filter 6 - Bacteriostatic Filter Media/Media Penapis Bakteriostatik	1 unit	192.00	203.00	111.00	111.00

A new day has come

mase meeting boss cakap from now on kene sign in & out of office, sbb kalo ape2 hal sennag diorg keep track & save the butt...which i understand perfectly. Cume busan, mende ni jadi sbb sorang buat taik. Before this boss mmg lenient, skerg dah strict sket...

then, diorg nak kite set bape aritkel per week bleh ditulis. It'll be around 4-5 articles per week, depending on the contents...pergh, mau perah otak hari2 nih!

A new guy is joining us, ok la...wa tarak hal..i do my work, do not disturb me....

Sepatutnye minggu ni gi golfing dgn boss, tp since the ex-staff lum pulangkan notebook, boss x dpt set date...huh....lepas raye le nampaknye nak swing!!!!!

Body, Mind & Soul

Tired! My Iman was admitted on 23rd July due to high fever, from middle ear & throat infection. The fever had been around for a week, on & off. The white blood cell count showed it;s higer than normal...normal would be 4-11, but his was 19! ...

And his fever reached 40 degree C. It takes 3 days for his fever to settled, with help from Zinnat, a strong antibiotic. Thank you Allah!...

Now back at work, less worry about my kids at kindy. Macam2 ujian Allah, from kete rosak, eksiden & baby admitted.

Isra' MIkraj

accident do happen...

Otw to work, at T junction, a motobike rider hit me. Iwas shocked and quite shaken for a while. Jot down his bike number as he just ran-off. What the heck! There were a few brothers helped to calm me.

After a while ( my bro & hubby friend came for the rescue), apparently I was ok. I logged a report as it was a hit and run.

Phew...it's my first experience and I'd never forget the impact it has on me....

So many things to do, yet so little time

In my head, there is a list of things need to be done a.s.a.p.
One of it is making sample of raya cookies like this crystal balls, which is ordered by Ina.
Thinking of selling it at RM16 for 50 pieces.

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A friend whom we haven't met for many years heard that I work again. His assumption for me going back to work was my hubby has a 2nd wife! Wow! It was unthinkable, yet people can derive into this kind of assumption. Hmmm..let them be, as long as I know and I trust my other half.

Nothing Special tho....

Well, it's been 5 months since I started working again on 16th Feb 09. Working is fine, workload is fine..

I'm just lucky to have this kind of career eventho the pay is not much, but I have the flexibility to be with my family when they need me most. Alhamdulillah.

Hopefully next month review will have some increment! ....

too tired to think

(Read my blog sub-title) --------------> I take back my words; things don’t just happen…you make it happen. You actions, your un-thoughtfulness, your self-centeredness, your selfishness always make me feel miserable. The best thing is, you never realize or maybe you never care....

Trojan Horse Sheur.CFQB

Semlm, tetibe threatfire appl detects trojan horse ni. Gabra sekejap. Scan with AVG, masuk Vault & remove.
Uninstall Bittorent,& DNABT (ni main source trojan horse) nih..check regedit..

Alhamdulillah, rase ok ni...

Dah dapat task baru semlm, a bit challenging, but I think can be done. Need to do lots of research & discuss with Frank...

1st Assignment

My 3rd day at work, and I showed him my progress so far, and he likes it! Yee haaa, Alhamdulillah, I'm on the right track...gambatta rina!


As for the kids, Finally today, Najla didn't cry when we left her at the nursey. I think she has no choice, so she decided not to make it more difficult....

Nursery

1st day to nursery;

Iman : A cool boy, didn't shed a tear, play with the teacher & other kids. My only concern is when he wants to sleep, surely he'll search for his mommy..

Najla : Cried when we tried to leave, then, I have to wait for awhile until she cools down. After a couple of mintes she still cries, I have no choice but to left her. By the time we reach our car, her cries faded...Well, she looks fine, hopefully she'll be fine...


Me: Mix feeling...

A new beginning of 2009

After 4yrs & 5 mths of being a fulltime housewife, I'll start working again. My action inflict many reactions from my friends...My family fully support my decision.

I was looking at this job ad, then I just have 'this' feeling that I must try this one....I have nothing to lose. So, I emailed to the MD, telling him bit & pieces abt myself, etc etc etc...Anyway, the email was 'informal and very different from the 'formal' standard...It's like I was telling a story of my life....

Frankly, I wasn't expecting anything from this application coz he wants someone excellent in English, hmmpp..which I think I'm not. When he replied for an interview, I was a bit surprise....very surprise indeed....

The interview was held at a cafe. We talked abt a lot of things. Then, I asked him, 'do i consider myself hired'. His reply was ' yes, if u want to'..he he he. I kind of speechless.. Then we talked abt the details, he showed me the office layout...it was a wonderful experience.

I were to start on mid of feb. my feeling? excited, but with lots of butterfly in my stomach. I feel like a fresh grad, but 'old' fresh grad hehehehe...

Well, I have mix feeling abt sending the kids to nursery, but this is life. This is what I want, I have to be strong and firm. It will be tough for 1st few months, but the tough will gets going....

wish me luck....

Sheperd Pie & Choc Cake

Here we go, My 1st ever sheperd pie & my choc cake with my 1st rose icing...

1st November 2008

On 1st November (iman's birthday) , kitorg gi meminang Siti Nurhaliza (yes it is her name), for my bro in law. Jauh le jugak, kat Kuala Selangor. Alhamdulillah, semua berjalan lancar.









Balik, dah kepenatan..sampai just b4 maghrib. Lepas maghrib, kuar gi dinner pulak...Penatnya Ya Rabb...





Plan nak buat kenduri sket utk birthday Iman, tapi x jadi sbb Najla & Irdina was sick.

Diwali Holiday & still open house..

Mmg raya sakan, dina dah abis exam. Layan CH613. Sabtu 1 kenduri, 1 open house.
Hari Ahad ade 1 kenduri , 2 open house. Tak pergi semua la, cuaca panas, kesian pulak kat budak2 ni...

Abahnyer pulak promise nak bawa tgk HSM3, while me stay at home with Iman. he he he...
Semlm, bawa diorg gi main kat Tesco playarea..beli susu sket, terus ajak hubby kuar. Hajat nak beli bedak & stuffs terkubur coz pening sangat, tgk ramai org, dgn bisingnyaa...aduhhh.... Asben ajak singgah Parkson, beli bedak maybelline angelfit..leh tahan gak harganya...

Balik umah, masak ketam masak lemak, kailan ikan masin & ikan goreng. Wah! Berselera betul Dina & Najla makan nasik... As for me, prefer kari ketam ( tp x reti masak)...biar diorg je enjoy....

Hari plan nak masak siakap sweet sour...fav kids jugak...

Raya - Open house & Not-so-called-'Open'

For pic raya, dah upload kat http://www.emzetha.com, sikit saja...kat facebook banyak lah...

trend sekrg ni rata-rata org buat open house. Sehari dlm, 3-4 house yg diopen. So, kalau rumah yg tak open tak bleh pergi ker? Tak dialu2kan ker? Kami adalah antara orang yg memang tak buat open house. Sbb, hmm..tak larat nak masak byk2, kalau cater pun lauk pauk +- je dgn rumah2 lain..satu lg, bile ramai tetamu dtg, kite tak dpt berkenalan dgn lebih rapat dgn diorg. Time raya ni la nak rapat mane yg kurang rapat kan?

Jiran2 majoriti buat open house. Kami just jemput diorg ke rumah bile2 mase diorg free. So, macam semlm..since ade rajin sket. Me masak shell goreng( alaa, mcm goreng bihun tu ajer) & Angel Hair with primavera sauce, dessertnya sago gula melaka...& sirap (coz our family loves sirap!)..sempoi saja




pasta is our fav...




ni first time buat sago gula melaka...

nak kene ade title ke?

Alhamdulillah, my 3rd project is almost done. Tunggu more infos from customer. So, this week free sket nak continue the 2nd project yg on hold for a long time.

Yesterday & the day b4 yesterday ade open house, jiran2 terdekat buat. So, mmg kena pi la, sbb ade yg mmg tak pernah jumpa lagi...seronok gak dpt jumpa walaupun sekejap. Yg kelakonyer, ade 2-3 org younger than me called themselves 'kakak' when talked to me. Mula2 confuse gaks, coz their kids kecik2 lagi, lepas risik2...mmg betul I'm older than most of them...heehehehe...

Ok la...kang rajin2 nak mengupload pic raya...

From Chikungunya to HFMD

Iman start nampak kena chicken pox on that Sunday, 21st sep...tp mase tu ingat heat rash kat badan jer. Balik rumah, singgah A&E pantai, doc confirm it's Chic Pox..aiyoyoyo... Jenuh gak menjaga pak aji ni, nak dukung ajer...
Semua projek terbengkalai, rumah cam tongkang pecah...

Mlm selasa , bdana dah rase tak sedap..telan paracetamol..Next morning still x ok. Malah makin teruk, badan gigil2 lepas mandikan Iman. Panas sgt rase dlm mulut, tp at the same time sejuk ya rabbi, sampai kena pakai sweater & socks. Tetiba jejari rasa kebas, kaki cramp...
Sendi semua terasa bisa, nak dukung Iman pun tak bleh...tak tertahan..termenangis menahan derita....sampai asben bali, bw gi klinik...demam cecah 40 darah, doc terus bg injection. She suspected cikungunya & suggested admit to hospital.
Admitted for 4 days. Lepas 3 hari kat sepital, mulut terasa sakit sgt, tonsil bengkak, ade ke doctor tu cakap...ok, merah sikit saja... huh..

Lepas discharged, balik umah tgk ade bintik2 merah kat tangan & sket kat kaki...Gi pulak klinik nak confirm kena chic pox again ke?
Doc cakap, ni HFMD! What??? She said my immune system was very low, tu yg bleh kene...usually kene kat kid < 10 yo..adoiii....

She told me not to have direct contact with my kids...uwaaaa...dah le 3 hari tak jumpa Iman..ini x bleh pegang, cium..etc..
Bermula era penderitaan ke2. - Tak bleh makan, minum.ulser penuh dkm mulut, hanya Allah yg tau siksanya...sakitnya..Allah, ampunkan lah dosa2 ku...

Hari ni, sehari sebelum raya, Alhamdulillah I'm feeling much better. Cuma belum dapat peluk kids. Inilah ujian terbesar buat aku tahun ni, setakat ni...

Interview - success but reject offer

20th Sep
Balik kg jap, sbb raya kali ni kat Penang. Balik hari jumaat, sabtu balik semula ke Melaka.

21st Sep
Interview with BobD. At first I was nervous, mind you, it;s 8 years after my last interview. Wel, he was cool, we chit chat bla bla bla...I feel more relax start to talk more..then, he told me...
'H, I'm very impress with you, and would like to have you in our team' I was beyond happy. Then, he told me the project I'll be involved is in KL, next in Penang next in blabla bla bla..
I felt do dissappointed as I told him.
'Bob I have yo tell you the truth that I can't travel'.
'Ohhh..'
I was silenced.
Then he said, okay then, I understand your situation & since I like you very much, I'll contact you if there's any thing can be done remotely or any project near your base'
me ' Thanks alot Bob'.

Me left with hubby & kids , we went to shopping tudung raya...

My hubby 'Means, still marketable le ek?'
Me 'Nampak gitu la, but die ni mat saleh, depa nye view lain sket dgn org kite..org kite kalo tgk dah tak kerja 4 tahun, pikir yg bukan2..'

Happy 8th Anniversary 16.09-08

Genap 8 tahun melayari hidup bersama, suka duka dilalui bersama...moga terus berpanjangan jodoh kami bersama, sehingga akhir hayat (either one of us la ;))..

Hari ini juga, genap 3 tahun arwah ayah pergi meninggalkan aku, tanpa sempat ku menatap dirinya setelah setahun tidak berjumpa. Bermakna 4 tahun memori ku berlalu...sedih hati ini, Allah saja yg tahu. Al-Fatihah.

Kisah Interview

Kes 1

7.00am Email CV to company A.
12.oopm Company A called for an interview at 3.00pm today! OMG, tak sempat nak prepare ape2. Hentam saja lah labu...
3.00pm Meet the Company Director. bla bla bala bla bla... Siap. They can't confirm on the salary yet. Will know by Wednesday, hmp... aah..If give a good offer, I'd accept but if below my expectation...terpakse tolak la kot...Tgk le camne...

Kes 2
7.31 am (UK Time)..Pls check your email (Interview Invitation).
Aduh, dah check email baru perasan the HQ kat cyberjaya. So, If hired, kene kat cyberjaya, kene reject interview ni la. But looks like I like the nature of this job compare to Kes 1...Tunggu ape that manager reply dulu..

Oh Iman..Iman

Alkisahnya, masa follow up dgn Dr. Lim, Iman demam around 37.9 degree C. Berlanjutan for 4 days. Hari ni pulak, nampak red spots kat muka & badan die. Aduh, kene measles ke chicken pox ni? Patut ler die asyik meragam , menangis jer..


Esok la bawa ke klinik. MIL nasihatkan jgn mandikan, bg air kelapa...

Cuti sekolah di Pantai (Hospital)

Iman was admitted on 20th until 23rd August. All of us stay in the room for 2 nights (as usual)...

He refuse milk, plain water & refuse porridge. In 3 days he lost 1/2 g. I was so worried. The paed, Dr. LIMBY told us too much phlegm in between the nose & throat..

He needs to go thu the nebulizer every 4 hours & phelgm suction once a day which is done by a physiotherapist.

Alhamdulillah, on 2nd day, the wheezing sound is gone. It's just he doesn';t hv appetite to eat. He drinks milk once a day, that;s all...still good enough as he doesn;t have to use IV..

Everytime the nurser come to give him nebulizer he will cry very hard. It breaks my heart to watch him to go thru all these procedure...

Back home, he looks happier. After 2 days discharged, his appetite is back, yayayyy..Alhamdulillah...hopefully he will gain weight again..

Kids at hospital's play room

Tawau Trip 7.08 - 10.08

In front of Atok mertua's house

Trip pak su kawin, jumpe atok, nenek, pakcik makcik sepupu sepapat... Umah atok ni terletak di perkampungan air. A new experience la kiranya ni, gi kat area dapur & toilet , rase beralun2 jer. Sekeliling umah penuh air, nak kedarat ade jambatan panjang yg hubungi setiap rumah. Yg kelakonye, tanye sepupu ni, mane tong sampah ye? Die cakap, buang saja.. i was HA??? buang saja di luar....lohh...pakai campak2 je ke luar rumah Yg bestnya, nyamuk & lalat langsung tarak...cuma panas sket la. Tp airnya sejukkkk, air disalirkan dr air terjun....tak redha nak mandi subuh2, dah le subuh awal...atok senyum je tgk cucu die nih..he he he..siap tanye nak air panas? hahahaah...memalukan tul.

Kat sini terase meriah je, sbb malam2 pun dengo bunyi lalu lalang, sembang...awal2 pagi dah bunyi ketung ketang org masak. Bayangkan, kul 5am dah siap dok jual kuih...fuh..sedap pulak karipap tuu....Nasi kuninh yg famous tu, waallaaa sedapnyer...asyik makan jer, sampai nak zipkan jeans pun dah payah hahahah...teruk... Wedding day pulak, lepas akad nikah ade jamuan kuih & nasi. Lepas tu, jalan2 ke pasar gantung, kejap je....sbb mase x cukup. Mlm tu pulak, ade Wedding dinner pengantin pompuan, kat restoran mane tah..x ingat laks.

Selama 3 nights kat sana, 1st night Iman buat hal - so me mmg tido 2 jam je. 2nd night ok, 3rd night die buat hal balik...rase mamai jer...tak cukup tido, siang penuh aktiviti...dugaan tul..Dah le me ni jenis payah nak tido siang... sampai umah ni, ape lagi.qadha tido le.....he he he...

Sedara mara di Tawau mmg best sangat, semuanya menyambut kita dgn hati terbuka, terasa macam dah kenal bertahun. Mmg sayu sgt rase mase nak balik tu. Even tho I'm just 'cucu menantu' . terase dilayan cam cucu sendiri...

Tak puas berjalan, kejap sangat diTawau. So, hubby dah plan nak beraya di Tawau tahun depan. Kite on ajer.....


Family reunion