End of year, A new beginning

Finally, 31st December is here even tho I wasn't really waiting for it. I need to plan ahead for the next year, fast!

Last night, during the meeting, the BOD asked me when can I give my 100% to the new co? I told them, give me another 2 months. What? Am I crazy? 2 months? It means I must tender must resignation letter by end of January. Geez, am I ready ? Frankly, I dunno....*sigh*
But, sooner or later, I'd be leaving. Hmm..*sigh*...think think think.

Mom & sis came during Xmas holiday, they're very supportive and mention that I look better than the last time they saw me.... errr....I was like, ok....he he...

Next year means I'm turning 36, mind you 36! Wow...I don't feel like 36, I feel me...very me...the same old me, with the naughtiness, cheekiness, playfulness inside me...hmm..should I change?

I just don't know and don't want to know...right now, I'm gonna make a cup of coffee & enjoy my breakfast, alone......

Happy New Year 1431

Alhamdulillah, bertemu tahun baru 1431.

Kali ini, memang benar2 terasa penghijrahan diri ini, dalam semua segi. Terasa semakin kerdil diri ini, makin matang dlm mengharungi liku2 kehidupan.

Di doakan tahun baru ini penuh barakah dr Mu Ya Allah. Tabahkan hatiku dlm menhadapi cabaran2 yg mendatang...

Apa2 terjadi dlm hidup ini, ianya adalah ujian .

"...But it is possible that you dislike a thing which is good for you, and that you love a thing which is bad for you. But Allah knows, and you know not." Al-Baqarah 216

Sleepless nights..

Semakin dirasai penangannya, makin dekat open day...makin susah nak lelapkan mate.....

HasbunAllah wa Ni'mal Wakil.

Allah Alone is Sufficient for us, and He is the Best Disposer of affairs for us.

11-Dec-09. The boss asked us to join him for lunch. He told that, they had made a huge decision, either to move back to Singapore or to KL. The main reason is the Int. school here sucks. Well, it's true, they'd been complaining about it for a long time. They said, they can't compromise for their kids' future..

My reaction? I was dumbstruck. How on earth am I going to deal with my current commitments? My minds wandering off, think about this and that. What the heck am i going to do? What is my next plan? I think my face was like an open book...He kept on apologizing that he has no choice....

Then, he said, he is offering us freelance job as a writer. Good.
My plan would be :
1: Write
2: Continue with developing website
3: teach at centre.

I think, that would be sufficient. I have more time with family & still get to do what I want. I talked to my bro about this. He said good, focus on the centre. He'll help me with some teaching material & techniques. I haven't tell mom yet. Will do when she comes here for xmas...

I believe he takes into consideration before making the decision, that me & F have a backup plan, which is the centre. As for Z, i think he is flying back to UK to further his study. Well, it looks that the decision is convinient to all.

May be I'm not too happy now, but HE knows best. There's a blessing in disguise what ever happen in our life. May You give me strength to continue with my challenging life....

Everything happens for a reason, which reason doesn't know...

My dear missing friend

I heard the bad news abt your family. I hope & pray everything will turn out to be fine, better than before..Ameen.....



p/s: miss talking to u...

Retail therapy

perfume dah abis, anyway it wasn't my favorite one. The one and only perfume that I love is no longer available in Msia market. Last bottle that I bought, opss hubby bought was in UK. extravagance d'amarige...The first bottle was also bought by hubby in Paris..I just love the scent, it makes u feel sooo sexy....

tried a few others like, oui, jadore, jpg...nothing can beat extravagance d'amarige....*sigh*

Two months ago, while walking at Parkson. I was given a perfume card, and the smell was...hmm...heavenly, fresh, seductive and not too strong....at that time i don't need one..so i just ignore...

Today i went back & get Chance by Chanel...lovely, love it...yummm..pakai mase tido ni...aaaah...heaven! deh..ape le me dok merapu meraban mlm2 bute nih!

Kenduri kawin, Ikea & Muntah ........

sabtu gi settle ngecat kat centre...& luckily I bring along his trainees, budak2 tu continue until today....

Ahad tu, gi A kawin kat Kajang. Stop @ McD, Iman muntah..alahai kesiannye. Sib baik mama die selalu spare baju. salin & teruskan perjalanan..tp dlm hati tak sedpa je tgk Iman ni...lepas muntah..he is ok..happy...

Then kat kenduri pun ok, x sesat..lepak lamer aa gak..sejam setengah...sembang2..then terus ke ikea. Kat situ, ya rabb! ramainye umat...tp gi gaks le..dah sampai...pusing punya pusing, Iman muntah one more time! Sib baik kat tepi, habis baju hubby...Pastu die tido, kitorg pun ready to go home...dlm keter...after his meal, muntah agiks...duh...sib baik me cepat, kalo idak habis baju die..
Terus ke spital pantai, check...masuk ubat kat montot balik...The next day, Iman dah ok...Alhamdulillah...
Macam2....

TENSION..AGAIN!!!!!!!

duh..mmg menguji kesabaran tul laaaaa.....isy....rase tak tau aaaa....arghhhhh!!!!!!!!!!

my yellow

YELLOW

Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And everything you do,
Yeah, they were all yellow.
I came along,
I wrote a song for you,
And all the things you do,
And it was called "Yellow".
So then I took my turn,
Oh what a thing to have done,
And it was all "Yellow."
Your skin,
Oh yeah your skin and bones,
Turn into something beautiful,
You know, you know I love you so,
You know I love you so.
I swam across,
I jumped across for you,
Oh what a thing to do.
Cos you were all "Yellow",
I drew a line,
I drew a line for you,
Oh what a thing to do,
And it was all "Yellow."
Your skin,
Oh yeah your skin and bones,
Turn into something beautiful,
And you know,
For you I'd bleed myself dry,
For you I'd bleed myself dry.
It's true,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine for,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine.
Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And all the things that you do.

Missing my yellow.....A LOT!

Tension aaa!

Hmm...maleh nak citer byk2..but tgh tension.... & try nak cool down....:(

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Semlm mimpi someone used to be closed to me, sekrg die menghilangkan diri..invisible, ghaib...ala ...mimpi ber-ym chatting tp rase cam real wakakakakakka...hampeskan?

org tua2 kate, kalo kite mimpi org tu, org tu tgh ingat kat kite eh?
Kalo kite mimpi beckham, cemane die nak ingat kat kite, kenal pun idak hak hak....

lepas luah kat sini, lega sket rase..bleh continue my life happily. x suke le perasaan hangen, marah2 ni...May be tgh angkat bendera kot, tu yg mood swings semacam....

mate, mate, mate (remember the birds sound in Finding Nemo?))

I came across this poll when surfing bettyconfidential (fav emag to get ideas ;))

Do you believe everyone has one soul mate?
1. Yes! I'm still looking.
2. Yes, and I've found mine.
3. No - that's a bunch of BS.
4. No - I think we have more than one chance.

What your answer? Mine is 4, we can have many soul mates...hak hak......and tada!! majority agrees with me...:D

Where are you, my soul mate? check mate?

Clean up clean up.....

Lepas breakfast, terus ke centre. DH & Am attack the walls. Me & F, paint the doors...pergh...penat xiot!!!!!.....siap 2 ajer..heheh..
1.30 dah kene caloo, pick up kids from nursery...Balik, lepas bersihkan badan, makan do the necessary stuffs...me terbaring je..hehehe...penat tak terkate...

Esok, Dh, Am, F & PMA will continue the hardwork...

Nampaknye my adv kat mudah dah mendapat sambutan, cume sekrg nak tapis & kene jumpe calon2 ni....

Moga2 semua berjalan lancar....Ameen....

Interview

Lunch tadi, gi jumpe Annie, bakal admin...tak interview ape pun, coz amoi dah tau byk pasal die. She can talk in 4 languages whic is an added bonus....

Annie asked me, are u married?
I said yes.
Do u have kids?
I said , yes, 3..
She was like....3!!! look at you, u look young..
I'm 35 okay...
tell me your secret, high metabolim rate...
......and the chat goes on...

kembang le montot sekejap kene puji, but to know myself...I'm not that gorgeous I can see fine lines under the eyes. My figure is not like 10 years ago, but I'm very please with myself....what the heck, as long as i'm happy ..especially when i weary skimpy outfits at home..wakakakakka....

Oh yea, It's my birthday!!

Well, my day started of with the Uganda kiss & wish from DH..hak hak....

Then, at office, CEO wished me. happy besday! CEO called up me & amoi to meeting room. Tadaa, what's going on? We were given warning, yes! warning! Mind you, my mind was so dumb, I can't think straight,. He said, what he said ya... He said, we're using Ym excessively. hu hu...tak terkate ape, coz I already slowed down...rase sbb yg terbesar ialah kami tgh set up kan bisnes baru...

takpe le...die tuan empunya, die berhak kate ape pon, even tho his statements contradicts what he said previously....nak ade relaxed environment...
He even gave us choices:
1. stop using ym exessively for own use, for office ok.
2. if not, he'll banned ym
3. he pay us per piece of work... whoaaa.....
mau tak terkujat otak mendengaunyer..hak hak...amoi said sorry, me said thanks.

ntah le, me rase takde salah besar, coz like me working with A company b4, boss x kisah sgt ape kite buat, yg penting keje siap, performance tip top. Tu yg rase pelik, die tak sentuh psl performance down ke ape. kate kerja berdasarkan performance, so, x kisah le camne kita guna mase, yg penting output tu. Kalo ini tak boleh, itu tak boleh! wah, ini macam tempat kerja ape pun tak tau...

yg tak tahan tu, die kate ape yg kami sembang tu, kalo digabung, bleh siap satu artikel. cantik nye perli-kan?....kami ni jenis x byk komplen. Kalo nak diikut, dulu diorg ckp nak letak kipas, mikrowave kat panty..last2? habuk pun tarak. pas tu, dulu ade gak biskut, sekali tu je diorg letak..dah habis, xde top up pun.. bilik solat? mane ade bilik, letak pengadang je...tu pun kite ok ajer.

Dah le keje, gaji basic je..janji review setiap 6 bulan..janji tinggal janji. medical benefit tarak. Pastu, nak amik time off pun berkira, suh apply leave! Pergh...kalo x pk kan bleh keje dari umah, mmg x de ape yg menarik kat sini. Mule2 je die ok, makin menunjukkan diri die yg sebeno...

pastu ape eh? GM called me for meeting. Die pula kate, you're doing good job & then discuss other things. Duh, pening! Depa ni buat lawak ke apa?

Lantak le, rase down pun ade, rase lawak ade....lantak le..

Balik cam biasa, 5 sharp, calooo betty...
Mlm, gi carik new hp with wifi, ye le yg ni cokia je nokia 7500..kalo nak connect kene gprs, slow pulak tu...finally, me chooce Nokia 5730, mmg dah lamer kuar, tp dah berkenan kan? Blackberry is nice, tp nak bayo monthly line fees tu...forget it~ pakai je yg termampu...

makan kat KR, the kids really enjoy the meal. Balik, me siap kan web suzy. Alhamdullilah, www.happynhealthy4u.com dah siap. chmod issue dah settle. Chaiyyuk! Looks like i still hv the skill..hak hak...

ape la yg me dah merepek meraban malam ni..dah dekar 12 malam..nak titon oh yes! ben, tq for the wish ya! Ingat jugak.....

Meichoo..awal2 anto sms takut lupa, tyha, ifa, fini (need to call u back!)...kat Fb x yah citer aaa...lenguh jari reply msgs! TQ all...muahssssss

my life is full of colors...

TKD-Date with Suzy

Busy day. Semlm tido after 1 am, x tau le kul bape terlelap. Then, wakes up early to print the sample flyer. Ink pulak dah nak abis! (Next time, no last minute work hokay!)...

Then, gi TKD, cari kedai fotostat. Ade satu bukak, tanye die mmg bukak Ahad ke? Die ckp, tak kak, Ahad tutup, hari ni rase nak bukak. Wah, I'm lucky I guess!

Me distributes the flyers, buat muke tembok jer he he..but Dina's grading finished quite fast. Then, heading home..balik, continue website Suzy

DH ajak late lunch kat Mydin & beli sket brg.

Me & Suzy gi SR, die banjer cheesecake durian & ice blended capucino. Ade ke machine buat hot drinks rosak! Deh...Me teaches her a few basic stuffs on photo editing, & Joomla-ing.

Sampai umah, maghrib. Kids dah siap mandi, & diorg makan cheesecake. Dah tido semua, me & hubby dok bertentangan..masing2 buat kije...

Me still facing the chmod problem!! Uarhh....nik tak online pulak, idak ble tanye die. Tinggal 1 agi ni je , pastu, considered siap le..Then, me can concentrate on DLC..opss..x bleh gak..another website is waiting!!! Huarggggghhhhhhhh!!!!

Georgian Reunion @ Parkroyal 21ts Nov 09

waduh! supoosedly esok me gi dgn lin lembek, tp nak wat camne. Anak die admitted. Means both of us takde rezeki nak jumpe kawan2 ex-ssgs yg dah tak dijumpa selama 20 years!.

Esok me gi melawat lyn & her handsome le kat Spital Pantai. Ops, b4 that nak survey new kindy for Najla. Then, after that gi carik banner house. ...pick up kids, alamak flyer, biz card lum siap! duh...fenin fenin...

nak kene contact mamat 2 org tu pulak, ntah bile diorg free nak jumpe...

I'm terribly sad!

I'm shocked!!! My sis text me, saying that doc advised mom to undergo mammogram, cause she had liquid discharged and she can barely raise her hand. Duh! Why she didn't tell me? I call her like almost every day, coz I know she's lonely at home alone....

Can't help but cry, God...give me strength!!!!

How shall I put it?

Lately, so many things happened in my life. How shall I put it? Not all can be written here....

One thing for sure, I'm excited about meeting the girls (ex-SGGS) @ Parkroyal on 21st November. It's been 20years! I already get permission from DH, lyn lembek (heheh) gonna fetch me, then we'll pick bad & aryati at Nilai, and then we'll head to Parkroyal! Let's paint the town red!

As for DLC (Not OLC, SSM won't accept the name)...

The location is confirm. Next, proceed with creating co. acct, draft the agreement letter, schedules, renovation, getting the furnitures, duh!!! so many thing...

I'm excited but at the same time I have "frog" in the stomach. can't sleep well, lost appetites, and I feel 24hrs a day just ain't enough....I should be counting my blessing.....

OLC is coming up

Semlm gi tgh office lot. It's huge 31' by 70'. Nego punya nego, dpt le rm1k a month. Contract 3+2.
A very good deal indeed, even the 20 by 70, the landlord offered 800 per mth...

byk mende lagi nak kene buat ni...rase out of hand je.....

When You're Gone

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

[Chorus]
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

Alhamdulillah

Last night, we held our first meeting. Looks like our dream (me & Fern) will comes true. Alhamdulillah, the guys are content with our exec plan & costing. We'll go ahead start building things step by step....

Thank God for this one in a lifetime opportunity....

November Rain

Fistly, happy birthday to my dear friends whom their bithdays fall on november - Ben, Zura, Ina and Helen.

When I look into your eyes
I can see a love restrained
But darlin' when I hold you
Don't you know I feel the same

'Cause nothin' lasts forever
And we both know hearts can change
And it's hard to hold a candle
In the cold November rain

We've been through this auch a long long time
Just tryin' to kill the pain

But lovers always come and lovers always go
An no one's really sure who's lettin' go today
Walking away

If we could take the time
to lay it on the line
I could rest my head
Just knowin' that you were mine
All mine
So if you want to love me
then darlin' don't refrain
Or I'll just end up walkin'
In the cold November rain

Do you need some time...on your own
Do you need some time...all alone
Everybody needs some time...
on their own
Don't you know you need some time...all alone

I know it's hard to keep an open heart
When even friends seem out to harm you
But if you could heal a broken heart
Wouldn't time be out to charm you

Sometimes I need some time...on my
own
Sometimes I need some time...all alone
Everybody needs some time...
on their own
Don't you know you need some time...all alone

And when your fears subside
And shadows still remain
I know that you can love me
When there's no one left to blame
So never mind the darkness
We still can find a way
'Cause nothin' lasts forever
Even cold November rain

Don't ya think that you need somebody
Don't ya think that you need someone
Everybody needs somebody
You're not the only one
You're not the only one

May the month of rain bring happiness in our life. Ameen.

1-November 2009

Iman's birthday. I purposely chosen 1-11-07 after 2-11-07 fell on Friday, that was my first choice.

Well, today we head to SR, to have Dina's fav Dory, me & hubby's fav lamb stew, Iman's fav new york cheese cake & Najla? My special girl eats bits of this & that...

Headache ler pulak ni, maybe coz today day 1, rase serabut je...rasa macam2, rindu, sedih, happy...semua ada...

A quote to ponder over.

Don't let someone be a priority in ur life, when u are just an option in his life.

Kenangan

Bila terbaca tajuk di forum tentang mencari rezeki semasa kecil...teringat apa yg me buat dulu..Walaupun kami dr keluarga yg susah, apa2 hasil jualan, mak bagi kat me...

me suh mak buat sagun, then, me bungkus dlm corong kertas, tapi mmg dah tak ingat berapa sen jual...hasilnya? me simpan.

ayah rajin usahakan tanah kat belakang flat for fun, tanam jagung, kacang panjang, kacang botol, bendi...& me loves helping him. Siram pokok2..paling best dapat petik hasil2 tanaman.. Then, ayah akan ikat, suh me jual kat flat, tak boleh pergi jauh...flat kitorg sahaja...Usually, mmg habis le..& hasilnya? dapat kat me jugak...

Me think, this is one of the reasons me close to ayah..selalu ikut ayah buat keje2 gini. Pernah tolong ayah cat rumah, sbb teringin sgt, tapis pasir utk ayah buat rumah org, main dgn pegetam kayu, kirenye alat pertukangan ni, mostly me pernah pegang...

Bile ayah dah pencen, mak & ayah buat jual goreng pisang & kuih muih. Balik cuti dar U, me sure akan tolong mak kat gerai. Takde istilah malu cam setengah org yg me kenal. lepas tu, mak & ayah besarkan perniagaan, buka kopitiam, sambutan amat menggalakkan. Ade org sewa gerai jual tomyam, nasi dalca, burger, capati..

Mmg happening, and mase ni me dah start kerja.. ade mase luang, me sure helps out, biasanya basuh2 cawan (even tho ade ankle yg buat kerja ni), amik order ..or just temankan mak.

Masa ayah tengah sakit kuat due to advance stomach cancer, we rent out the place. Ayah pesan kat mak, kalo die tak de, tak yah berniaga. Sejak ayah meninggal, mmg mak tak continue berniaga, sewakan kat org. Baru2 ni, diorg tak nak continue coz the business is not good. Mak cakap takpe. Biar je kedai gitu. Mak (&ayah) very particular pasal kebersihan gerai. So, nak dapatkan org yg benar2 jaga kebersihan mmg susah sgt....

Hmm...while rambling here, my heart feels like bursting out. I miss you very much, ayah! I love you! I don't have the chance to tell you this when we talked for the last time over the phone. I reliazed that your voiced changed..you're crying! Oh God! Help me..I miss my dad dearly..Tempatkan lah die dikalangan org2 yg beriman. Al-Fatihah. Amin.

HE knows better.....

SOMETIMES aLLAH BREAKS OUR SPIRIT TO SAVE OUR SOUL
SOMETIMES ALLAH BREAKS OUR HEART TO MAKE US WHOLE
SOMETIMES ALLAH ALLOWS PAIN SO WE CAN BE STRONGER
SOMETIMES ALLAH SEND US FAILURE SO WE CAN BE HUMBLE
SOMETIMES ALLAH ALLOW ILLNESS SO WE CAN TAKE CARE OF OUR SELVES
SOMETIMES ALLAH TAKES EVERYTHING AWAY FROM US
SO WE CAN LEARN THE VALUE OF EVERYTHING HE GAVE US
MAKE PLANS BUT UNDERSTAND THAT WE LIVE BY ALLAH'S GRACE

Rindu

Bila rindu menjengah & bertamu, sesaknye terasa nafas........

The Guest Book

It makes me laugh real hard on some of the comments posted by my cyber friends on the old guest book. Most of the time, I can't recall who they are....Many more, especially at the “private entry”, but sadly I forgotten the password.

Name: zulkovf

Location: hankook

Comments: a'kum

weit gempak siut aku org pertama sign lam ni caya ler sama aku ahax hahahahahahahahhaahah

weit angel ha dapat gak aku menengok kan diri kat muke ko hahhahahaha

weit ko nye hp sangat gempak kalau nnak banding kan hp lembi aku tu ghaha

tapi aku bangga ngan kerja aku sebab aku buat pun sendiri2 jek tarak org tolong

walau bagaimana maju ler bangsa untuk negara wa cakap luuuu

wa cici ai wei

w'salam

Name: TanGGo

Location: Sinar Mentari oh Korea.

Comments: Yahoooooo..aku the 2nd person sign guest book ko nie....bangga siut...terasa kembang lubang idung aku nie...hahahah

opppsss lupa lak nak bagi salam...Asalaamualaikumm...kalau mak aku tahu aku sign nie ..buat kenduri tetiap jumaat weii..hahaha..macam baca yasin wa cakap lu..hahaha..

Aku dah jumpa ko ler..masa tu aku tak minat..tak de perasaan..tapi sejak aku tengok ko jatuh cinta siut..available lagi ke rko nie..hahahahha

Ok lah kang carut leleby lak dlm ko nie nie...teruskan usha ko tu....ok...nice knowing u..bye....

Name: MOHD NIZAM A.K.A LoRD GrUnGeRZ

Location: malaysia la!!!...mana lagi??!!

Comments: ntah la.....aku pun tak tau nak komen apemenda...sebab aku dah comment dah dalam e-mail tuh. so kat sini...tak yah la yek sayang??!!!!...ala....nanti u copy paste dari mail aku tu dalam view guestbook tu yek??!!....takkan tu pooon u tak tau!!!!!

tu jer...jangan marah....sebab aku pun......malas nak menaip nih!!!!

Name: Ariffin bin Ahmad

Location: Serdang.

Comments: Amende le....

homepage ntah hapahapa...

tapi, tahniahla....

sebab background di cun gak....

tu jeh....jangan merajuk lagi yek.......JoeEl.....

Name: beta

Location: dari planet zargus..hahahha

Comments: a'kum..

hai angel..akhirnya..berjaya gak aku bukak ko nyer hp nih..hahahaha.. dan menyain kat dalam nih....

aku sungguh berbahagia..hahahaha

Name: MyLady~Royalblood of cyberworld

Location: Malaysia

Comments: A'kum ANGEL...

Nih aku baru nak sign guestbook ko...jiwang karats hp ko...anyway...caya ler...dari tak reti buat hp cam kuali dan sudip tuh...kira ok ler

...yg paling best kat hp ko tuh part ada nama aku tuh...dan

yang paling korok part ko taruk nama KURIN tuh ngan gambo dia

.. buat pe ko taruk gambo budak tuh...bukannye berseri pun...

buat dia di timpa perasaan jer...

Anyway ANGEL...best of luck in everything...thanks for everything and everytime

we shared together...dan sesungguhnye..."hanya Angel (bidadari) sebagai ganti" ahaks...

beta jangan jeles...be here always...

Name: hetfield@het@donut@belukang

Location: taiwan

Comments: saje melancong aha...cun jugak??? hp laaaaaa....cakap org pun ape lak salahnya kan

emm since ade sorang tu insist suh mention nama dia so

aku sebut la nama dia kurin kurin kurin kurin..ha cukup ke

ahak...chow weh

Name: apiss

Location: Japan

Comments: saya sukakan sesatu yg ringkas selesa dan tidak keterlaluan

heheh. apo laie nak tulis?NGEL. aku dah sain. buleh makan free dak?

Name: unie

Comments: kurang kelakar

Name: Den budak Nogoghi....

Referred By: From AngelFire

Location: Pilah... humang banggo'eh den...!!

Comments: Den budak Pilah... den banggo boto laaa dongan tanah tumpah darah den nie... Tawun niee... NS misti jadi champion Liga punyo laaa... Pada Rina... U're the best... Penang pun boleh tahan gak... NS+Penang=gegarrrrr!!!!!

Name: hir0mi@r0mi@0mi

E-Mail: c08172@sr2.takuma-ct.ac.jp;omi76@yahoo.com

Location: mesia

Comments: assalamualaikum wbt

hehe...hang .....angel..tengkiu bagi aku lawat hp hang ni..pade kesempatan ni aku nak sain aa gesbuk ni

aku rase dah penah tengok...dan dah sain

tapi takpe ..aku sign manyak kali

bukan abih pon dakwat aku

ahaxs...

tengkiu aaa...wassalam

Name: |alakazam|

Location: kypm kl

Comments: nie aku jumpe site nie dari ompej abang araya...mule2 aku tengok tak best tapie tetiba jadi best pulak...so aku sain le guestbook nie...ape2 hal.....kak angel.....ko nie cun dan best la..sekian wassalam.

|alakazam|

Name: wan

Location: US

Comments: -->

wan: asal jangan dia ngaku cung

Saber: hehehe

ANGEL: kehkehkeh

ANGEL tak cun..ngaku...

Saber: oooo....kau sanggup buat pe je..asalkan dia tak ngaku cun yekk

wan: hah ok

ANGEL: kehkehkeh

Saber: hehe

ANGEL: ni url nyer

wan: org tak cung je leh kawan ngan aku

Saber: url tuh mende yekk hehehe

ok babai dah sign

Good Bye -26-Oct-2009

Don't be afraid to love totally & completely....
I came not, to steal away your heart....but you steal mine...he he
My only love sprung from my only hate...from romeo & juliet...
The original look was better I guess, this is after some modification..funny, it looks worse!
the new page, dedicated for personal photos...it's always under construction, never finished, till it die....

My 1st website was developed 12 years ago. The coding done manually using the beloved notepad. But now, it's gone. Geocities has decided to stop the free website service. I captured a few pages, just to flash back the memories...

baja/7991 in memory....

u have it too?

Subhanallah..

لَوْ تَعْلَمُونَ مَا أَعْلَمُ لَضَحِكْتُمْ قَلِيلاً وَلَبَكَيْتُمْ كَثِيرًا

"IF YOU ONLY KNEW WHAT I KNOW, YOU WOULD LAUGH LESS AND CRY MORE."

Ini antara hadis Nabi yg mucul di kaki baby Ali di Yakubov, Moscos setiap mlm Isnin dan Jumaat. Sesungguhnya Allah sedang memberi peringatan kepada kita yang lalai...

Keep on pushing on....

Another catchy song from Miley C, not only catchy but the lyric gives you the positive thinking about life, pursuing your dream no matter what comes in between. Keep the faith close to your heart!

The Climb

I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa

Reality bites

At one point, you are tested when you're at the comfortable zone, when you least expect it to happen. Later, when the damage is done, picking up the bits and pieces is the hardest part. Anyway, you have to remember, life has to go on; get the toughest glue to seal the bits and pieces together and always protect yourself from yourself (you know what I mean). You never knew what's gonna happen....

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and some things are better left unsaid....

Soulmate Fantasy

You believe that there is only one soulmate out there to complete you... and that when you meet them, you’ll know right away. Well, this may seem like a harmless fairytale fantasy but can also be the path to self-destruction. There are many people that can be considered your ‘soulmate’, it just depends on how you look at it. If you keep waiting for that one true love to show up, you will either keep ending up in disappointing relationships because you fall too hard, too fast, or become bitter when you don’t find them.

excerpt from Fairytale Syndrome

bitter when you don't find them? well, even worse when u found them & lost them...no?

Interesting!

I get this from a forum, very interesting indeed;

...mimosa is..

...touch me not...

...marital affair is...

...forget me not...

Last so-called open house

Happy birthday my dearest MIL, Mary....
Sabtu, b4 balik kg...Dh's friend ajak makan kat umah die, so..berangkat le kitorg, with Yana (dearest SIL)... Then, that night, me sakit perut ya amat, by 8pm me terbaring, tido je..kids? let others uruskan, the next morning baru ok. Then, Dh pulak sakit, die lagi teruk diarrhea & demam..pergh...sampai Melaka pun dah Maghrib

Tak dpt gi open house umah Ina (Sorry!)...& umah Sally (Double Sorry!)..me dah confirm with u, but Allah tentukan me tak dapat gi agi, nanti u deliver baby, me gi umah u eh? I'm really sorry!

Kat umah DH's friend, sempat merapu2 sebelum tuan umah hidangkan makanan. Me, Yana & Dh..Hampesss!!! Kirenye habis romantik aa tu..hahahaha..xiot je Yana!

480e

My dearest cousin (Pai), has comes up with this project in remembrance of our Tok's home which already demolished due to so-called "development". He wants us to flash back our memories in that special house...

Frankly, I think Ihave more memories compared to other siblings as I spent more time with Tok & Pai. Every weekends, I'd asked my dad to send me to Tok's house, & Pai is my best buddy...we play, eat & sleep together. I don't mind telling the sweet memories, I have lots of them..

But, there are some bad ones too, which I prefer to bury..I wish I could. Oh God! How i wish...It becomes a nightmare in my teenage years....but no longer since I talked to someone I can trust. I'm more than OK now....

One thing for sure, I would never forgive them for the rest of their fucking life!

Love is in the air?

Love:
If you are with someone; today will be a harmonious day with them. If you've been waiting to say something to that special someone, today is the day. Love is in the air!
Career:
Your hard work is paying off, someone at work has noticed your effort and you will be rewarded today.
Health:
You've been doing really well at keeping up your health!
Wealth:
A promotion or large sum of money may be coming into your possesion soon! You may be able to take that vacation you've been wanting!

I don't really into this horoscope thingy, got this from my friend's Fb...what the heck, it's just for fun! I still remember years a go when I decided to get engaged with DH, Richard mentioned that me being a Tiger will have to problem matching or tame the stubbornness of an Ox.....well, what does he know? he he

Big Girls Don't Cry lyrics

Big Girls Don't Cry lyrics

The smell of your skin lingers on me now
You're probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection, baby
To be with myself and center
Clarity, peace, serenity

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do

And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry, don't cry, don't cry

The path that I'm walkin', I must go alone
I must take the baby steps 'til I'm full grown, full grown
Fairy tales don't always have a happy ending, do they?
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do

And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry

Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and Uno cards
I'll be your best friend and you'll be mine
Valentine

Yes, you can hold my hand if you want to
'Cause I want to hold yours too
We'll be playmates and lovers
And share our secret worlds

But it's time for me to go home
It's getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself, and center
Clarity, peace, serenity

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do

And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry, don't cry, don't cry

Dear God

Dear God, Please give me strength.....

Rejuvenate

If you put you mind into it, you sure can do it!

Focus

1. website suzy1

2. website suzy2

3. project with fern - ni yg memeningkan kapla, everytime buka spreasheets, rase pening....kalo gini, bile le nak siap my baby nih. Kekadang rase down gaks, coz x tau nak tanye kat sape dlm hal2 gini. Ade kengkawan pun, x ramai yg dpt membantu.

At least ari tu, mat gabra ada call back regarding this, idak mau me kebuntuan lagiks....

vocab hari ni, friend with benefit - all the while i thought it means a helpful friend hehehhe

meaning : it's when you don't want a serious relationship but you want him / her as your toy to fuck around with.It also can be when she / him are already in a realtionship but you like that person so he/she agrees to be your friend with benefit.

it ain't over 'til it's over

It's Over !!!

Sleepless nite

It's hard when you have difficulty closing your eyes at night, where you need the most crucial rest. To make it worse, you have bits and pieces of weird dreams. You feel like you're in a subconscious world and you feel very restless, wakes up several time and looking at the clock, wishing it's already morning...

Have you ever feel terrible for making someone's life miserable indirectly, albeit he/she says that it had nothing to do with you? Well, that's what i'm feeling now.....

the chocolate run

me done reading the choc run, done the review for the online magazine. The Verdict? It was funny, witty, cheeky, u know the kind chic-lit book. I love the way she build up the characters...But to re-read again? Not yet, maybe next year. I prefer marshmallow for breakfast and my best friend's girl..more heart gripping.

I just can't wait to read twenties girl from my favorite chic-lit author, Sophie Kinsella. I just love her can u keep a secret & the undomestic goddess.

MC

sakitnye paler ni...rase nak tercabut je....lepas antar dina ke KAFA, nak tido sepuas2nye.....

everything else, can wait....

b4 & after raya

so many unexpected things happen, makes me think about, life...

YELLOW

Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And everything you do,
Yeah, they were all yellow.
I came along,
I wrote a song for you,
And all the things you do,
And it was called "Yellow".
So then I took my turn,
Oh what a thing to have done,
And it was all "Yellow."
Your skin,
Oh yeah your skin and bones,
Turn into something beautiful,
You know, you know I love you so,
You know I love you so.
I swam across,
I jumped across for you,
Oh what a thing to do.
Cos you were all "Yellow",
I drew a line,
I drew a line for you,
Oh what a thing to do,
And it was all "Yellow."
Your skin,
Oh yeah your skin and bones,
Turn into something beautiful,
And you know,
For you I'd bleed myself dry,
For you I'd bleed myself dry.
It's true,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine for,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine.
Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And all the things that you do.

house painting project

The stripy feature wall. It turns out to be better than we expected. ...Love it! It certainly gives cheerful mood.

The dining area..nampak kosong sket, tp kalo tgk dgn meja, jadi 'busy' la nanti...

Living are ni nampak kosong yet, still figuring out what to hang on the wall. Tak nak membeli, nak recycle what I have in the house...

The maroon curtain, matching pulak dgn candy floss pink ni....

Finally it's here!

After 4 agony days waiting for it to appear in my life, it came right after I visited the GP, seeking advice on how to proceed with my current condition. Thanks Allah, I'm just not ready yet, physically & mentally......

Weekend @ Home

Penat sungguh 2 hari ni...

Sabtu - Plan nak ke KL, tgk adik ipar baru deliver baby Sumayyah. Tapi cancel, cused hubby kepenatan ngecat umah. Me buat biskut sarang semut, utk suzy & Ct. Petang try buat chocolate cookies for us la pulak...dah cukup buat utk org..penat seh....

Ahad - Pagi2 meneruskan usaha buat choc cookies for mak & mil pulak. Kalo larat, petang ni nak buat sejenis lagi....tp tgk le..penat je rase, tlg hubby rearrange perabot kat umah ni. He is almost done with painting...berseri le sket rumah ni...idak dull ajer warna nyer....

Cuti yg penuh dgn aktiviti

Saturday - Pagi2, shopping groceries, tinggalkan kids kat nursery. Brought dina along, but I made her wear mask all the way. Cooked for iftar.

Sunday - Hubby & bro paint the living room with candy pink & lime green! I love it, it's such a wonderful color. Not everyone dare to use this color scheme. As for me, I bake the sarang semut cookies from my bro's friends...Err, next year I don't want to take cookies order anymore...damn tired!

Monday - Merdeka! We went out to get new tv cabinet & side shelf...murah je, bajet ciput...ehehehhe....

Just a glance, makes me think about life!

Semasa dlm kereta tadi, semasa jenguk ke kiri, nampak sebuah motor. Pemboncengnya muda (anak rasenye), Yg bawa motor tu bapaknye...Pakai hensem je mamat ni, dlm bakul motor ade fail..macam nak pergi interview je, muke nervous gile. Yg bapaknye, nampak cool je... rindu kat arwah ayah!

Kemudian, terdetik kat hati ni, Allah sentiasa permudahkan urusan ku bila nak dapatkan kerja, aku patut bersyukur. Rase sedih plak, x tau sebab pe. Yg pasti, akan ku buat kerja bersungguh... Ameen.

Stress

@ 3.30am terjaga dari tidur. rupenya, kepala otak ni masih tension ...huh...betullah kata ustaz fadilah kamsah, kene mamafkan orang baru bleh tido. Well, the problem is i don't have the intention to forgive that person just yet!

Some ppl are just selfish, put themselves at utmost priority! let the others sink!...

test for ai

Harga Produk DCL
Bil	No. Kod	Butir-Butir Kandungan	Kuantiti	Harga
				W.M	E.M	Brunei	S'pore
Minuman Berfungsi / Functional Drink
1	FD-1a	Oxi-Pi D'Ionik (air alkali beroksigen) - 350ml	24 botol	90.80	105.80	52.90	52.90
2	FD-1b	Oxi-Pi D'Ionik (air alkali beroksigen) - 350ml	2 botol	7.90	9.20	4.60	4.60
3	FD-2	Bidadari (minuman berfungsi) - 250ml	1 unit	53.00	58.50	29.50	29.50
4	FD-3a	Red Guara Café (pek aluminium) - 20gm	18 sachets	22.00	24.50	13.50	13.50
5	FD-3b	Red Guara Café (DCLWare) - 20gm	95 sachets	118.00	130.00	68.00	68.00
6	FD-4	Amazing (minuman bernutrisi) - 290gm	1 unit	45.00	49.50	25.50	25.50
7	FD-5	Susu Koles-Gen - 15gm	20 sachets	98.00	103.00	49.00	49.00
8	FD-6	Nig'Ella (minuman bernutrisi) - 10ml	1 unit	45.00	49.50	25.00	25.00
Makanan Berfungsi / Functional Food
1	FF-1	Nu Age (makanan berfungsi) - 3gm	15 sachets	78.00	85.00	45.00	45.00
Homeopati / Homeopathy
1	HP-1	D'bless (homeopathy)	90 tablets	76.00	83.00	42.00	42.00
2	HP-2	D'Gnius (homeopathy) - Kanak-kanak	80 tablets	39.50	41.50	21.00	21.00
3	HP-3	E'Gnius (homeopathy) - Dewasa	90 tablets	48.00	53.00	27.50	27.50
Herba Tradisional / Traditional Herb
1	TH-1a	Inte-Cleanse (herba) - 500mg - 2 pek	20 capsules	48.00	53.00	29.50	29.50
2	TH-1b	Clon-Clenz - 400mg	30 capsules	48.00	53.00	29.50	29.50
3	TH-2	Ry-Ilex (herba) - 500 mg - 4 pek	40 capsules	58.00	65.00	34.00	34.00
4	TH-3	Q-She (herba) - 400mg	42 capsules	68.00	75.00	38.50	38.50
Penjagaan Rumah / Home Care
1	HC-1	Serbuk Pencuci SA-9 - 1kg	1 unit	17.80	19.50	10.00	10.00
Penjagaan Diri / Personal Care
1	PC-1	Fantasia Shower Scrub - 300ml	1 unit	25.00	27.00	13.00	13.00
2	PC-4	Love Hygiene Wash-Strawberry - 70ml	1 unit	25.00	27.00	13.00	13.00
Penjagaan Kecantikan / Beauty Care
1	BC-1A	d'laila (Beauty Series) 3 in 1 - 45gm+5gm+5gm	1 unit	48.50	53.50	27.50	27.50
2	BC-1B	d'laila (Acne Series) 2 in 1 - 45gm+5gm	1 unit	48.50	53.50	27.50	27.50
3	BC-2A	d'laila (Beauty Facial Bar) - 45gm	1 unit	16.50	17.80	9.50	9.50
4	BC-2B	d'laila (Acne Facial Bar) - 45gm	1 unit	16.50	17.80	9.50	9.50
5	BC-3	d'laila (Beauty Night Cream) - 15gm	1 unit	58.50	63.00	33.00	33.00
6	BC-4	Fantasiola (Lipstik Magic Color) - 3.5gm	1 unit	29.00	31.00	17.50	17.50
7	BC-5	d'laila (Sun Block) - 15gm	1 unit	64.50	69.50	36.50	36.50
8	BC-6	d'laila (Acne Lotion) - 15gm	1 unit	58.50	63.00	33.00	33.00
9	BC-7	Fantasia Perfume Body Moisturizer - 100ml	1 unit	48.00	52.00	27.00	27.00
10	BC-8	Be-One Multi Gel - 110gm	1 unit	44.50	48.50	25.00	25.00
Rawatan Air / Water Treatment
1	WT-1	Sistem Perawatan Air OXI-PI D'Ionik Life Water	1 unit	2,120.00	2,190.00	1,150.00	1,150.00
2	WT-2	Filter 1 - Ceramic Filter/Penapis Seramik	1 unit	81.00	91.00	46.00	46.00
3	WT-3	Filter 2 - Activated Carbon/Penapis Karbon Diaktifkan	1 unit	81.00	91.00	45.00	45.00
4	WT-4	Filter 3 - Pre-Activated Carbon, High Grade Sand and Kinetic Degradattion Fluxion/Penapis Karbon Diaktifkan, Pasir Gred Tinggi dan (Kinetic Degradition Fluxion)	1 unit	149.00	161.00	85.00	85.00
5	WT-5	Filter 4 - Energized Converter/Konverter Bertenaga	1 unit	149.00	161.00	85.00	85.00
6	WT-6	Filter 5 - Ionized Converter/Konverter Berion	1 unit	149.00	161.00	85.00	85.00
7	WT-7	Filter 6 - Bacteriostatic Filter Media/Media Penapis Bakteriostatik	1 unit	192.00	203.00	111.00	111.00

A new day has come

mase meeting boss cakap from now on kene sign in & out of office, sbb kalo ape2 hal sennag diorg keep track & save the butt...which i understand perfectly. Cume busan, mende ni jadi sbb sorang buat taik. Before this boss mmg lenient, skerg dah strict sket...

then, diorg nak kite set bape aritkel per week bleh ditulis. It'll be around 4-5 articles per week, depending on the contents...pergh, mau perah otak hari2 nih!

A new guy is joining us, ok la...wa tarak hal..i do my work, do not disturb me....

Sepatutnye minggu ni gi golfing dgn boss, tp since the ex-staff lum pulangkan notebook, boss x dpt set date...huh....lepas raye le nampaknye nak swing!!!!!

Body, Mind & Soul

Tired! My Iman was admitted on 23rd July due to high fever, from middle ear & throat infection. The fever had been around for a week, on & off. The white blood cell count showed it;s higer than normal...normal would be 4-11, but his was 19! ...

And his fever reached 40 degree C. It takes 3 days for his fever to settled, with help from Zinnat, a strong antibiotic. Thank you Allah!...

Now back at work, less worry about my kids at kindy. Macam2 ujian Allah, from kete rosak, eksiden & baby admitted.

Isra' MIkraj

accident do happen...

Otw to work, at T junction, a motobike rider hit me. Iwas shocked and quite shaken for a while. Jot down his bike number as he just ran-off. What the heck! There were a few brothers helped to calm me.

After a while ( my bro & hubby friend came for the rescue), apparently I was ok. I logged a report as it was a hit and run.

Phew...it's my first experience and I'd never forget the impact it has on me....

So many things to do, yet so little time

In my head, there is a list of things need to be done a.s.a.p.
One of it is making sample of raya cookies like this crystal balls, which is ordered by Ina.
Thinking of selling it at RM16 for 50 pieces.

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A friend whom we haven't met for many years heard that I work again. His assumption for me going back to work was my hubby has a 2nd wife! Wow! It was unthinkable, yet people can derive into this kind of assumption. Hmmm..let them be, as long as I know and I trust my other half.

Nothing Special tho....

Well, it's been 5 months since I started working again on 16th Feb 09. Working is fine, workload is fine..

I'm just lucky to have this kind of career eventho the pay is not much, but I have the flexibility to be with my family when they need me most. Alhamdulillah.

Hopefully next month review will have some increment! ....

too tired to think

(Read my blog sub-title) --------------> I take back my words; things don’t just happen…you make it happen. You actions, your un-thoughtfulness, your self-centeredness, your selfishness always make me feel miserable. The best thing is, you never realize or maybe you never care....

Trojan Horse Sheur.CFQB

Semlm, tetibe threatfire appl detects trojan horse ni. Gabra sekejap. Scan with AVG, masuk Vault & remove.
Uninstall Bittorent,& DNABT (ni main source trojan horse) nih..check regedit..

Alhamdulillah, rase ok ni...

Dah dapat task baru semlm, a bit challenging, but I think can be done. Need to do lots of research & discuss with Frank...

1st Assignment

My 3rd day at work, and I showed him my progress so far, and he likes it! Yee haaa, Alhamdulillah, I'm on the right track...gambatta rina!


As for the kids, Finally today, Najla didn't cry when we left her at the nursey. I think she has no choice, so she decided not to make it more difficult....

Nursery

1st day to nursery;

Iman : A cool boy, didn't shed a tear, play with the teacher & other kids. My only concern is when he wants to sleep, surely he'll search for his mommy..

Najla : Cried when we tried to leave, then, I have to wait for awhile until she cools down. After a couple of mintes she still cries, I have no choice but to left her. By the time we reach our car, her cries faded...Well, she looks fine, hopefully she'll be fine...


Me: Mix feeling...

A new beginning of 2009

After 4yrs & 5 mths of being a fulltime housewife, I'll start working again. My action inflict many reactions from my friends...My family fully support my decision.

I was looking at this job ad, then I just have 'this' feeling that I must try this one....I have nothing to lose. So, I emailed to the MD, telling him bit & pieces abt myself, etc etc etc...Anyway, the email was 'informal and very different from the 'formal' standard...It's like I was telling a story of my life....

Frankly, I wasn't expecting anything from this application coz he wants someone excellent in English, hmmpp..which I think I'm not. When he replied for an interview, I was a bit surprise....very surprise indeed....

The interview was held at a cafe. We talked abt a lot of things. Then, I asked him, 'do i consider myself hired'. His reply was ' yes, if u want to'..he he he. I kind of speechless.. Then we talked abt the details, he showed me the office layout...it was a wonderful experience.

I were to start on mid of feb. my feeling? excited, but with lots of butterfly in my stomach. I feel like a fresh grad, but 'old' fresh grad hehehehe...

Well, I have mix feeling abt sending the kids to nursery, but this is life. This is what I want, I have to be strong and firm. It will be tough for 1st few months, but the tough will gets going....

wish me luck....