End of year, A new beginning

Finally, 31st December is here even tho I wasn't really waiting for it. I need to plan ahead for the next year, fast!

Last night, during the meeting, the BOD asked me when can I give my 100% to the new co? I told them, give me another 2 months. What? Am I crazy? 2 months? It means I must tender must resignation letter by end of January. Geez, am I ready ? Frankly, I dunno....*sigh*
But, sooner or later, I'd be leaving. Hmm..*sigh*...think think think.

Mom & sis came during Xmas holiday, they're very supportive and mention that I look better than the last time they saw me.... errr....I was like, ok....he he...

Next year means I'm turning 36, mind you 36! Wow...I don't feel like 36, I feel me...very me...the same old me, with the naughtiness, cheekiness, playfulness inside me...hmm..should I change?

I just don't know and don't want to know...right now, I'm gonna make a cup of coffee & enjoy my breakfast, alone......

Happy New Year 1431

Alhamdulillah, bertemu tahun baru 1431.

Kali ini, memang benar2 terasa penghijrahan diri ini, dalam semua segi. Terasa semakin kerdil diri ini, makin matang dlm mengharungi liku2 kehidupan.

Di doakan tahun baru ini penuh barakah dr Mu Ya Allah. Tabahkan hatiku dlm menhadapi cabaran2 yg mendatang...

Apa2 terjadi dlm hidup ini, ianya adalah ujian .

"...But it is possible that you dislike a thing which is good for you, and that you love a thing which is bad for you. But Allah knows, and you know not." Al-Baqarah 216

Sleepless nights..

Semakin dirasai penangannya, makin dekat open day...makin susah nak lelapkan mate.....

HasbunAllah wa Ni'mal Wakil.

Allah Alone is Sufficient for us, and He is the Best Disposer of affairs for us.

11-Dec-09. The boss asked us to join him for lunch. He told that, they had made a huge decision, either to move back to Singapore or to KL. The main reason is the Int. school here sucks. Well, it's true, they'd been complaining about it for a long time. They said, they can't compromise for their kids' future..

My reaction? I was dumbstruck. How on earth am I going to deal with my current commitments? My minds wandering off, think about this and that. What the heck am i going to do? What is my next plan? I think my face was like an open book...He kept on apologizing that he has no choice....

Then, he said, he is offering us freelance job as a writer. Good.
My plan would be :
1: Write
2: Continue with developing website
3: teach at centre.

I think, that would be sufficient. I have more time with family & still get to do what I want. I talked to my bro about this. He said good, focus on the centre. He'll help me with some teaching material & techniques. I haven't tell mom yet. Will do when she comes here for xmas...

I believe he takes into consideration before making the decision, that me & F have a backup plan, which is the centre. As for Z, i think he is flying back to UK to further his study. Well, it looks that the decision is convinient to all.

May be I'm not too happy now, but HE knows best. There's a blessing in disguise what ever happen in our life. May You give me strength to continue with my challenging life....

Everything happens for a reason, which reason doesn't know...

My dear missing friend

I heard the bad news abt your family. I hope & pray everything will turn out to be fine, better than before..Ameen.....



p/s: miss talking to u...

Retail therapy

perfume dah abis, anyway it wasn't my favorite one. The one and only perfume that I love is no longer available in Msia market. Last bottle that I bought, opss hubby bought was in UK. extravagance d'amarige...The first bottle was also bought by hubby in Paris..I just love the scent, it makes u feel sooo sexy....

tried a few others like, oui, jadore, jpg...nothing can beat extravagance d'amarige....*sigh*

Two months ago, while walking at Parkson. I was given a perfume card, and the smell was...hmm...heavenly, fresh, seductive and not too strong....at that time i don't need one..so i just ignore...

Today i went back & get Chance by Chanel...lovely, love it...yummm..pakai mase tido ni...aaaah...heaven! deh..ape le me dok merapu meraban mlm2 bute nih!

Kenduri kawin, Ikea & Muntah ........

sabtu gi settle ngecat kat centre...& luckily I bring along his trainees, budak2 tu continue until today....

Ahad tu, gi A kawin kat Kajang. Stop @ McD, Iman muntah..alahai kesiannye. Sib baik mama die selalu spare baju. salin & teruskan perjalanan..tp dlm hati tak sedpa je tgk Iman ni...lepas muntah..he is ok..happy...

Then kat kenduri pun ok, x sesat..lepak lamer aa gak..sejam setengah...sembang2..then terus ke ikea. Kat situ, ya rabb! ramainye umat...tp gi gaks le..dah sampai...pusing punya pusing, Iman muntah one more time! Sib baik kat tepi, habis baju hubby...Pastu die tido, kitorg pun ready to go home...dlm keter...after his meal, muntah agiks...duh...sib baik me cepat, kalo idak habis baju die..
Terus ke spital pantai, check...masuk ubat kat montot balik...The next day, Iman dah ok...Alhamdulillah...
Macam2....

TENSION..AGAIN!!!!!!!

duh..mmg menguji kesabaran tul laaaaa.....isy....rase tak tau aaaa....arghhhhh!!!!!!!!!!

my yellow

YELLOW

Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And everything you do,
Yeah, they were all yellow.
I came along,
I wrote a song for you,
And all the things you do,
And it was called "Yellow".
So then I took my turn,
Oh what a thing to have done,
And it was all "Yellow."
Your skin,
Oh yeah your skin and bones,
Turn into something beautiful,
You know, you know I love you so,
You know I love you so.
I swam across,
I jumped across for you,
Oh what a thing to do.
Cos you were all "Yellow",
I drew a line,
I drew a line for you,
Oh what a thing to do,
And it was all "Yellow."
Your skin,
Oh yeah your skin and bones,
Turn into something beautiful,
And you know,
For you I'd bleed myself dry,
For you I'd bleed myself dry.
It's true,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine for,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine.
Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And all the things that you do.

Missing my yellow.....A LOT!

Tension aaa!

Hmm...maleh nak citer byk2..but tgh tension.... & try nak cool down....:(

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Semlm mimpi someone used to be closed to me, sekrg die menghilangkan diri..invisible, ghaib...ala ...mimpi ber-ym chatting tp rase cam real wakakakakakka...hampeskan?

org tua2 kate, kalo kite mimpi org tu, org tu tgh ingat kat kite eh?
Kalo kite mimpi beckham, cemane die nak ingat kat kite, kenal pun idak hak hak....

lepas luah kat sini, lega sket rase..bleh continue my life happily. x suke le perasaan hangen, marah2 ni...May be tgh angkat bendera kot, tu yg mood swings semacam....

mate, mate, mate (remember the birds sound in Finding Nemo?))

I came across this poll when surfing bettyconfidential (fav emag to get ideas ;))

Do you believe everyone has one soul mate?
1. Yes! I'm still looking.
2. Yes, and I've found mine.
3. No - that's a bunch of BS.
4. No - I think we have more than one chance.

What your answer? Mine is 4, we can have many soul mates...hak hak......and tada!! majority agrees with me...:D

Where are you, my soul mate? check mate?

Clean up clean up.....

Lepas breakfast, terus ke centre. DH & Am attack the walls. Me & F, paint the doors...pergh...penat xiot!!!!!.....siap 2 ajer..heheh..
1.30 dah kene caloo, pick up kids from nursery...Balik, lepas bersihkan badan, makan do the necessary stuffs...me terbaring je..hehehe...penat tak terkate...

Esok, Dh, Am, F & PMA will continue the hardwork...

Nampaknye my adv kat mudah dah mendapat sambutan, cume sekrg nak tapis & kene jumpe calon2 ni....

Moga2 semua berjalan lancar....Ameen....

Interview

Lunch tadi, gi jumpe Annie, bakal admin...tak interview ape pun, coz amoi dah tau byk pasal die. She can talk in 4 languages whic is an added bonus....

Annie asked me, are u married?
I said yes.
Do u have kids?
I said , yes, 3..
She was like....3!!! look at you, u look young..
I'm 35 okay...
tell me your secret, high metabolim rate...
......and the chat goes on...

kembang le montot sekejap kene puji, but to know myself...I'm not that gorgeous I can see fine lines under the eyes. My figure is not like 10 years ago, but I'm very please with myself....what the heck, as long as i'm happy ..especially when i weary skimpy outfits at home..wakakakakka....

Oh yea, It's my birthday!!

Well, my day started of with the Uganda kiss & wish from DH..hak hak....

Then, at office, CEO wished me. happy besday! CEO called up me & amoi to meeting room. Tadaa, what's going on? We were given warning, yes! warning! Mind you, my mind was so dumb, I can't think straight,. He said, what he said ya... He said, we're using Ym excessively. hu hu...tak terkate ape, coz I already slowed down...rase sbb yg terbesar ialah kami tgh set up kan bisnes baru...

takpe le...die tuan empunya, die berhak kate ape pon, even tho his statements contradicts what he said previously....nak ade relaxed environment...
He even gave us choices:
1. stop using ym exessively for own use, for office ok.
2. if not, he'll banned ym
3. he pay us per piece of work... whoaaa.....
mau tak terkujat otak mendengaunyer..hak hak...amoi said sorry, me said thanks.

ntah le, me rase takde salah besar, coz like me working with A company b4, boss x kisah sgt ape kite buat, yg penting keje siap, performance tip top. Tu yg rase pelik, die tak sentuh psl performance down ke ape. kate kerja berdasarkan performance, so, x kisah le camne kita guna mase, yg penting output tu. Kalo ini tak boleh, itu tak boleh! wah, ini macam tempat kerja ape pun tak tau...

yg tak tahan tu, die kate ape yg kami sembang tu, kalo digabung, bleh siap satu artikel. cantik nye perli-kan?....kami ni jenis x byk komplen. Kalo nak diikut, dulu diorg ckp nak letak kipas, mikrowave kat panty..last2? habuk pun tarak. pas tu, dulu ade gak biskut, sekali tu je diorg letak..dah habis, xde top up pun.. bilik solat? mane ade bilik, letak pengadang je...tu pun kite ok ajer.

Dah le keje, gaji basic je..janji review setiap 6 bulan..janji tinggal janji. medical benefit tarak. Pastu, nak amik time off pun berkira, suh apply leave! Pergh...kalo x pk kan bleh keje dari umah, mmg x de ape yg menarik kat sini. Mule2 je die ok, makin menunjukkan diri die yg sebeno...

pastu ape eh? GM called me for meeting. Die pula kate, you're doing good job & then discuss other things. Duh, pening! Depa ni buat lawak ke apa?

Lantak le, rase down pun ade, rase lawak ade....lantak le..

Balik cam biasa, 5 sharp, calooo betty...
Mlm, gi carik new hp with wifi, ye le yg ni cokia je nokia 7500..kalo nak connect kene gprs, slow pulak tu...finally, me chooce Nokia 5730, mmg dah lamer kuar, tp dah berkenan kan? Blackberry is nice, tp nak bayo monthly line fees tu...forget it~ pakai je yg termampu...

makan kat KR, the kids really enjoy the meal. Balik, me siap kan web suzy. Alhamdullilah, www.happynhealthy4u.com dah siap. chmod issue dah settle. Chaiyyuk! Looks like i still hv the skill..hak hak...

ape la yg me dah merepek meraban malam ni..dah dekar 12 malam..nak titon oh yes! ben, tq for the wish ya! Ingat jugak.....

Meichoo..awal2 anto sms takut lupa, tyha, ifa, fini (need to call u back!)...kat Fb x yah citer aaa...lenguh jari reply msgs! TQ all...muahssssss

my life is full of colors...

TKD-Date with Suzy

Busy day. Semlm tido after 1 am, x tau le kul bape terlelap. Then, wakes up early to print the sample flyer. Ink pulak dah nak abis! (Next time, no last minute work hokay!)...

Then, gi TKD, cari kedai fotostat. Ade satu bukak, tanye die mmg bukak Ahad ke? Die ckp, tak kak, Ahad tutup, hari ni rase nak bukak. Wah, I'm lucky I guess!

Me distributes the flyers, buat muke tembok jer he he..but Dina's grading finished quite fast. Then, heading home..balik, continue website Suzy

DH ajak late lunch kat Mydin & beli sket brg.

Me & Suzy gi SR, die banjer cheesecake durian & ice blended capucino. Ade ke machine buat hot drinks rosak! Deh...Me teaches her a few basic stuffs on photo editing, & Joomla-ing.

Sampai umah, maghrib. Kids dah siap mandi, & diorg makan cheesecake. Dah tido semua, me & hubby dok bertentangan..masing2 buat kije...

Me still facing the chmod problem!! Uarhh....nik tak online pulak, idak ble tanye die. Tinggal 1 agi ni je , pastu, considered siap le..Then, me can concentrate on DLC..opss..x bleh gak..another website is waiting!!! Huarggggghhhhhhhh!!!!

Georgian Reunion @ Parkroyal 21ts Nov 09

waduh! supoosedly esok me gi dgn lin lembek, tp nak wat camne. Anak die admitted. Means both of us takde rezeki nak jumpe kawan2 ex-ssgs yg dah tak dijumpa selama 20 years!.

Esok me gi melawat lyn & her handsome le kat Spital Pantai. Ops, b4 that nak survey new kindy for Najla. Then, after that gi carik banner house. ...pick up kids, alamak flyer, biz card lum siap! duh...fenin fenin...

nak kene contact mamat 2 org tu pulak, ntah bile diorg free nak jumpe...

I'm terribly sad!

I'm shocked!!! My sis text me, saying that doc advised mom to undergo mammogram, cause she had liquid discharged and she can barely raise her hand. Duh! Why she didn't tell me? I call her like almost every day, coz I know she's lonely at home alone....

Can't help but cry, God...give me strength!!!!

How shall I put it?

Lately, so many things happened in my life. How shall I put it? Not all can be written here....

One thing for sure, I'm excited about meeting the girls (ex-SGGS) @ Parkroyal on 21st November. It's been 20years! I already get permission from DH, lyn lembek (heheh) gonna fetch me, then we'll pick bad & aryati at Nilai, and then we'll head to Parkroyal! Let's paint the town red!

As for DLC (Not OLC, SSM won't accept the name)...

The location is confirm. Next, proceed with creating co. acct, draft the agreement letter, schedules, renovation, getting the furnitures, duh!!! so many thing...

I'm excited but at the same time I have "frog" in the stomach. can't sleep well, lost appetites, and I feel 24hrs a day just ain't enough....I should be counting my blessing.....

OLC is coming up

Semlm gi tgh office lot. It's huge 31' by 70'. Nego punya nego, dpt le rm1k a month. Contract 3+2.
A very good deal indeed, even the 20 by 70, the landlord offered 800 per mth...

byk mende lagi nak kene buat ni...rase out of hand je.....

When You're Gone

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

[Chorus]
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you