A quote to ponder over.

Don't let someone be a priority in ur life, when u are just an option in his life.

Kenangan

Bila terbaca tajuk di forum tentang mencari rezeki semasa kecil...teringat apa yg me buat dulu..Walaupun kami dr keluarga yg susah, apa2 hasil jualan, mak bagi kat me...

me suh mak buat sagun, then, me bungkus dlm corong kertas, tapi mmg dah tak ingat berapa sen jual...hasilnya? me simpan.

ayah rajin usahakan tanah kat belakang flat for fun, tanam jagung, kacang panjang, kacang botol, bendi...& me loves helping him. Siram pokok2..paling best dapat petik hasil2 tanaman.. Then, ayah akan ikat, suh me jual kat flat, tak boleh pergi jauh...flat kitorg sahaja...Usually, mmg habis le..& hasilnya? dapat kat me jugak...

Me think, this is one of the reasons me close to ayah..selalu ikut ayah buat keje2 gini. Pernah tolong ayah cat rumah, sbb teringin sgt, tapis pasir utk ayah buat rumah org, main dgn pegetam kayu, kirenye alat pertukangan ni, mostly me pernah pegang...

Bile ayah dah pencen, mak & ayah buat jual goreng pisang & kuih muih. Balik cuti dar U, me sure akan tolong mak kat gerai. Takde istilah malu cam setengah org yg me kenal. lepas tu, mak & ayah besarkan perniagaan, buka kopitiam, sambutan amat menggalakkan. Ade org sewa gerai jual tomyam, nasi dalca, burger, capati..

Mmg happening, and mase ni me dah start kerja.. ade mase luang, me sure helps out, biasanya basuh2 cawan (even tho ade ankle yg buat kerja ni), amik order ..or just temankan mak.

Masa ayah tengah sakit kuat due to advance stomach cancer, we rent out the place. Ayah pesan kat mak, kalo die tak de, tak yah berniaga. Sejak ayah meninggal, mmg mak tak continue berniaga, sewakan kat org. Baru2 ni, diorg tak nak continue coz the business is not good. Mak cakap takpe. Biar je kedai gitu. Mak (&ayah) very particular pasal kebersihan gerai. So, nak dapatkan org yg benar2 jaga kebersihan mmg susah sgt....

Hmm...while rambling here, my heart feels like bursting out. I miss you very much, ayah! I love you! I don't have the chance to tell you this when we talked for the last time over the phone. I reliazed that your voiced changed..you're crying! Oh God! Help me..I miss my dad dearly..Tempatkan lah die dikalangan org2 yg beriman. Al-Fatihah. Amin.

HE knows better.....

SOMETIMES aLLAH BREAKS OUR SPIRIT TO SAVE OUR SOUL
SOMETIMES ALLAH BREAKS OUR HEART TO MAKE US WHOLE
SOMETIMES ALLAH ALLOWS PAIN SO WE CAN BE STRONGER
SOMETIMES ALLAH SEND US FAILURE SO WE CAN BE HUMBLE
SOMETIMES ALLAH ALLOW ILLNESS SO WE CAN TAKE CARE OF OUR SELVES
SOMETIMES ALLAH TAKES EVERYTHING AWAY FROM US
SO WE CAN LEARN THE VALUE OF EVERYTHING HE GAVE US
MAKE PLANS BUT UNDERSTAND THAT WE LIVE BY ALLAH'S GRACE

Rindu

Bila rindu menjengah & bertamu, sesaknye terasa nafas........

The Guest Book

It makes me laugh real hard on some of the comments posted by my cyber friends on the old guest book. Most of the time, I can't recall who they are....Many more, especially at the “private entry”, but sadly I forgotten the password.

Name: zulkovf

Location: hankook

Comments: a'kum

weit gempak siut aku org pertama sign lam ni caya ler sama aku ahax hahahahahahahahhaahah

weit angel ha dapat gak aku menengok kan diri kat muke ko hahhahahaha

weit ko nye hp sangat gempak kalau nnak banding kan hp lembi aku tu ghaha

tapi aku bangga ngan kerja aku sebab aku buat pun sendiri2 jek tarak org tolong

walau bagaimana maju ler bangsa untuk negara wa cakap luuuu

wa cici ai wei

w'salam

Name: TanGGo

Location: Sinar Mentari oh Korea.

Comments: Yahoooooo..aku the 2nd person sign guest book ko nie....bangga siut...terasa kembang lubang idung aku nie...hahahah

opppsss lupa lak nak bagi salam...Asalaamualaikumm...kalau mak aku tahu aku sign nie ..buat kenduri tetiap jumaat weii..hahaha..macam baca yasin wa cakap lu..hahaha..

Aku dah jumpa ko ler..masa tu aku tak minat..tak de perasaan..tapi sejak aku tengok ko jatuh cinta siut..available lagi ke rko nie..hahahahha

Ok lah kang carut leleby lak dlm ko nie nie...teruskan usha ko tu....ok...nice knowing u..bye....

Name: MOHD NIZAM A.K.A LoRD GrUnGeRZ

Location: malaysia la!!!...mana lagi??!!

Comments: ntah la.....aku pun tak tau nak komen apemenda...sebab aku dah comment dah dalam e-mail tuh. so kat sini...tak yah la yek sayang??!!!!...ala....nanti u copy paste dari mail aku tu dalam view guestbook tu yek??!!....takkan tu pooon u tak tau!!!!!

tu jer...jangan marah....sebab aku pun......malas nak menaip nih!!!!

Name: Ariffin bin Ahmad

Location: Serdang.

Comments: Amende le....

homepage ntah hapahapa...

tapi, tahniahla....

sebab background di cun gak....

tu jeh....jangan merajuk lagi yek.......JoeEl.....

Name: beta

Location: dari planet zargus..hahahha

Comments: a'kum..

hai angel..akhirnya..berjaya gak aku bukak ko nyer hp nih..hahahaha.. dan menyain kat dalam nih....

aku sungguh berbahagia..hahahaha

Name: MyLady~Royalblood of cyberworld

Location: Malaysia

Comments: A'kum ANGEL...

Nih aku baru nak sign guestbook ko...jiwang karats hp ko...anyway...caya ler...dari tak reti buat hp cam kuali dan sudip tuh...kira ok ler

...yg paling best kat hp ko tuh part ada nama aku tuh...dan

yang paling korok part ko taruk nama KURIN tuh ngan gambo dia

.. buat pe ko taruk gambo budak tuh...bukannye berseri pun...

buat dia di timpa perasaan jer...

Anyway ANGEL...best of luck in everything...thanks for everything and everytime

we shared together...dan sesungguhnye..."hanya Angel (bidadari) sebagai ganti" ahaks...

beta jangan jeles...be here always...

Name: hetfield@het@donut@belukang

Location: taiwan

Comments: saje melancong aha...cun jugak??? hp laaaaaa....cakap org pun ape lak salahnya kan

emm since ade sorang tu insist suh mention nama dia so

aku sebut la nama dia kurin kurin kurin kurin..ha cukup ke

ahak...chow weh

Name: apiss

Location: Japan

Comments: saya sukakan sesatu yg ringkas selesa dan tidak keterlaluan

heheh. apo laie nak tulis?NGEL. aku dah sain. buleh makan free dak?

Name: unie

Comments: kurang kelakar

Name: Den budak Nogoghi....

Referred By: From AngelFire

Location: Pilah... humang banggo'eh den...!!

Comments: Den budak Pilah... den banggo boto laaa dongan tanah tumpah darah den nie... Tawun niee... NS misti jadi champion Liga punyo laaa... Pada Rina... U're the best... Penang pun boleh tahan gak... NS+Penang=gegarrrrr!!!!!

Name: hir0mi@r0mi@0mi

E-Mail: c08172@sr2.takuma-ct.ac.jp;omi76@yahoo.com

Location: mesia

Comments: assalamualaikum wbt

hehe...hang .....angel..tengkiu bagi aku lawat hp hang ni..pade kesempatan ni aku nak sain aa gesbuk ni

aku rase dah penah tengok...dan dah sain

tapi takpe ..aku sign manyak kali

bukan abih pon dakwat aku

ahaxs...

tengkiu aaa...wassalam

Name: |alakazam|

Location: kypm kl

Comments: nie aku jumpe site nie dari ompej abang araya...mule2 aku tengok tak best tapie tetiba jadi best pulak...so aku sain le guestbook nie...ape2 hal.....kak angel.....ko nie cun dan best la..sekian wassalam.

|alakazam|

Name: wan

Location: US

Comments: -->

wan: asal jangan dia ngaku cung

Saber: hehehe

ANGEL: kehkehkeh

ANGEL tak cun..ngaku...

Saber: oooo....kau sanggup buat pe je..asalkan dia tak ngaku cun yekk

wan: hah ok

ANGEL: kehkehkeh

Saber: hehe

ANGEL: ni url nyer

wan: org tak cung je leh kawan ngan aku

Saber: url tuh mende yekk hehehe

ok babai dah sign

Good Bye -26-Oct-2009

Don't be afraid to love totally & completely....
I came not, to steal away your heart....but you steal mine...he he
My only love sprung from my only hate...from romeo & juliet...
The original look was better I guess, this is after some modification..funny, it looks worse!
the new page, dedicated for personal photos...it's always under construction, never finished, till it die....

My 1st website was developed 12 years ago. The coding done manually using the beloved notepad. But now, it's gone. Geocities has decided to stop the free website service. I captured a few pages, just to flash back the memories...

baja/7991 in memory....

u have it too?

Subhanallah..

لَوْ تَعْلَمُونَ مَا أَعْلَمُ لَضَحِكْتُمْ قَلِيلاً وَلَبَكَيْتُمْ كَثِيرًا

"IF YOU ONLY KNEW WHAT I KNOW, YOU WOULD LAUGH LESS AND CRY MORE."

Ini antara hadis Nabi yg mucul di kaki baby Ali di Yakubov, Moscos setiap mlm Isnin dan Jumaat. Sesungguhnya Allah sedang memberi peringatan kepada kita yang lalai...

Keep on pushing on....

Another catchy song from Miley C, not only catchy but the lyric gives you the positive thinking about life, pursuing your dream no matter what comes in between. Keep the faith close to your heart!

The Climb

I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa

Reality bites

At one point, you are tested when you're at the comfortable zone, when you least expect it to happen. Later, when the damage is done, picking up the bits and pieces is the hardest part. Anyway, you have to remember, life has to go on; get the toughest glue to seal the bits and pieces together and always protect yourself from yourself (you know what I mean). You never knew what's gonna happen....

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and some things are better left unsaid....

Soulmate Fantasy

You believe that there is only one soulmate out there to complete you... and that when you meet them, you’ll know right away. Well, this may seem like a harmless fairytale fantasy but can also be the path to self-destruction. There are many people that can be considered your ‘soulmate’, it just depends on how you look at it. If you keep waiting for that one true love to show up, you will either keep ending up in disappointing relationships because you fall too hard, too fast, or become bitter when you don’t find them.

excerpt from Fairytale Syndrome

bitter when you don't find them? well, even worse when u found them & lost them...no?

Interesting!

I get this from a forum, very interesting indeed;

...mimosa is..

...touch me not...

...marital affair is...

...forget me not...

Last so-called open house

Happy birthday my dearest MIL, Mary....
Sabtu, b4 balik kg...Dh's friend ajak makan kat umah die, so..berangkat le kitorg, with Yana (dearest SIL)... Then, that night, me sakit perut ya amat, by 8pm me terbaring, tido je..kids? let others uruskan, the next morning baru ok. Then, Dh pulak sakit, die lagi teruk diarrhea & demam..pergh...sampai Melaka pun dah Maghrib

Tak dpt gi open house umah Ina (Sorry!)...& umah Sally (Double Sorry!)..me dah confirm with u, but Allah tentukan me tak dapat gi agi, nanti u deliver baby, me gi umah u eh? I'm really sorry!

Kat umah DH's friend, sempat merapu2 sebelum tuan umah hidangkan makanan. Me, Yana & Dh..Hampesss!!! Kirenye habis romantik aa tu..hahahaha..xiot je Yana!

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My dearest cousin (Pai), has comes up with this project in remembrance of our Tok's home which already demolished due to so-called "development". He wants us to flash back our memories in that special house...

Frankly, I think Ihave more memories compared to other siblings as I spent more time with Tok & Pai. Every weekends, I'd asked my dad to send me to Tok's house, & Pai is my best buddy...we play, eat & sleep together. I don't mind telling the sweet memories, I have lots of them..

But, there are some bad ones too, which I prefer to bury..I wish I could. Oh God! How i wish...It becomes a nightmare in my teenage years....but no longer since I talked to someone I can trust. I'm more than OK now....

One thing for sure, I would never forgive them for the rest of their fucking life!

Love is in the air?

Love:
If you are with someone; today will be a harmonious day with them. If you've been waiting to say something to that special someone, today is the day. Love is in the air!
Career:
Your hard work is paying off, someone at work has noticed your effort and you will be rewarded today.
Health:
You've been doing really well at keeping up your health!
Wealth:
A promotion or large sum of money may be coming into your possesion soon! You may be able to take that vacation you've been wanting!

I don't really into this horoscope thingy, got this from my friend's Fb...what the heck, it's just for fun! I still remember years a go when I decided to get engaged with DH, Richard mentioned that me being a Tiger will have to problem matching or tame the stubbornness of an Ox.....well, what does he know? he he

Big Girls Don't Cry lyrics

Big Girls Don't Cry lyrics

The smell of your skin lingers on me now
You're probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection, baby
To be with myself and center
Clarity, peace, serenity

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do

And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry, don't cry, don't cry

The path that I'm walkin', I must go alone
I must take the baby steps 'til I'm full grown, full grown
Fairy tales don't always have a happy ending, do they?
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do

And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry

Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and Uno cards
I'll be your best friend and you'll be mine
Valentine

Yes, you can hold my hand if you want to
'Cause I want to hold yours too
We'll be playmates and lovers
And share our secret worlds

But it's time for me to go home
It's getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself, and center
Clarity, peace, serenity

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do

And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry, don't cry, don't cry

Dear God

Dear God, Please give me strength.....

Rejuvenate

If you put you mind into it, you sure can do it!

Focus

1. website suzy1

2. website suzy2

3. project with fern - ni yg memeningkan kapla, everytime buka spreasheets, rase pening....kalo gini, bile le nak siap my baby nih. Kekadang rase down gaks, coz x tau nak tanye kat sape dlm hal2 gini. Ade kengkawan pun, x ramai yg dpt membantu.

At least ari tu, mat gabra ada call back regarding this, idak mau me kebuntuan lagiks....

vocab hari ni, friend with benefit - all the while i thought it means a helpful friend hehehhe

meaning : it's when you don't want a serious relationship but you want him / her as your toy to fuck around with.It also can be when she / him are already in a realtionship but you like that person so he/she agrees to be your friend with benefit.

it ain't over 'til it's over

It's Over !!!